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2011-08-04T20:55:00.001+08:00

Been long since I posted..

Stressful period right now~~

7Days to Preliminary Examinations;

68Days to Pre-A’s;

95Days to A’s.

The deadline is getting near by the second, closer & closer.

& as time passes, the more I find myself unable to cope.

Yes, its stressful.

But not in the way everyone expects me to be stressed in.

I’m confused, helpless.

I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore.

I can’t see my goal anymore.

I can’t find my motivation anymore.

All I think is “Why? So? Then?”.

& it never ends, no matter what I do, what I think.

I’m starting to lose my way.

A’s are nearing & im totally not prepared.

Prelims is in one week’s time but I’ve yet to revise.

My results are like shit & im not doing anything about it.

Im demoralised & I really want to just…

Just stop & quit.

It’s just so painful to push myself forward again & again without any reason.

It’s meaningless.

I know time passed & Life gone cannot be reversed.

But right now, im not forwarding either.

Presently, im lost.

Where’s the light at the end of every tunnel?

Its near the end of the road now.

& its also the period that i want to give up right now.

HYSTERICAL LAUGHTER.

2011-05-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

Hello again! [this next post was sooner than expected]

Had my Physics A’level SPA today/Yesterday.

Ain’t allowed to reveal the contents so yeah.

After that me and mich went to AMK to buy Koi!!! :DDDD

Bought 8Cups-.-

6Large 2Medium. LOL.

Green Milk Tea w Grass jelly & Pearl; Large; 50% Sugar

Milk Tea w Grass jelly; 4Large-(Two 25%)(One 50%)(One 100% w Pearl)

Pearl Milk Tea; 2Medium & 1Large-(50%)

Randomness. Hahas.

Then we had econs tutorial & for me, CSE as well.

Was quite short thou. I did study^^

But, wasn’t efficient I guess?

Evening-Night was HILARIOUS.

I cried laughing. Seriously.

Anyways, shall sleep soon. SOON.

Still charging my phone thou..

I just want some time to view the world.
To view the world i actually live in;
To take a glance at everything around me;
rather than rushing through and missing it all.

10MAY-FIRST POST OF 2011

2011-05-10T02:16:00.005+08:00

Been Ages since I posted.

Like 5months and 5days? Hahas(:

Anyways, mini update about me currently.

Pure Randomness.

Having my MYEs in 3days time.

Tomo’s my Physics SPA thou^^. Quite okay with this bah.

But MYE is a bit tough? L

A lot of topics tested, I can’t put everything into my head.

Worse of all, I’m not studying.

When I say I never study, I REALLY NEVER study.

And it sucks to know that myself and not do anything?

I’m losing my focus now. Like, I don’t know why I’m studying so hard for.

Why?

Anyway, read through my trip to Taiwan [previous post] just.

I miss the whole experience! L

It was fabulous and I loved it(:

Something I will never forget J

Gonna sleep soon I guess?

2:39AM liao. Hahas.

I❤TAIWAN

2010-12-05T21:10:00.004+08:00

I❤TAIWAN!!!

IT WAS SUPERBLY FUN!!

Day 1:

nothing much?

just travelled from Sing to HK to TW then bullet train to Tainan.

the bullet train DAMN NICE lahh!! spaceous and comfy(:

Reached the Cambridge hotel,

beds were QUEEN SIZE :D

had reflections at the hotel.

Day2:

Breakfast at hotel,

❤EGGs. hahas.

Travelled to Chang Jung High School,

performed--did quite well, only a few minor mistakes.

Then went to Old Folks Home,

saddening but lovely people there((:

Lunched, the vege there like got wasabi lahh. LOL

Went to some Anping Treehouse, learn their history.

the guide v.funny, named Anthony.

He likes to say

"You eat Taiwan's rice, Drink Taiwan's water, Breathe Taiwan's air, when you grow up must be nice to Taiwan."

HAHAHAHA!! damn funny lahh. LOL

He repeated that 3 times^^

The history was quite boring thou :l

Dinner, then went to some drama troupe thing.

did some exercies.

IT. WAS, DAMN. FUN. ❤❤❤

Then Back to hotel, reflections~

Day 3:

Guitar and Band Performed today at Chang Jung High School.

Toured around the school, IT WAS FREAKING HUGE. seriously.

Then to Qimei Museum,

B-E-A-U-TIFUL!!!!

They have a level for animals,

The animals are dead then they stuffed it with I duno what,

Ta-da! In the museum it goes. LOL.

Of course, the animals died naturally-.-

Anyway,

After that, we went for the student exchange program thing.

Chorale and Band stayed at Chang Jung,

Only Guzheng and Guitar went to the University of Technology for our exchange prog.

SUPERBLY FUN!! SERIOUSLY!!!

The people so friendly lah! :DD

drank our first milk tea also.

not bad(:

Then we went to GaoXiong,

To visit the river of love and the film museum.

Nth much?

After this was our FIRST Taiwan night market :D

I didn’t buy much? Only 3 small items..

Back to hotel, reflections~

Day 4:

Checked out of the Cambridge Hotel,

Transferred to Taipei and to YMCA hotel.

But, change of plans, after lunch went for hike at Yangminshan alr.

I ALMOST DIED?

Okay, before this was absolutely fine(:

This was where I was the beloved 小宝!

She attack me the first time I saw her lahh!

Lick my jeans-.-

SHE’S A CUTE DOGG!!! PICS ON FB!! SUPER CUTE!!!

Okay, fun part almost over.

Climbed a little up, then saw a water fountain. Quite nice(:

Climbed up more,

GOSH, I’M AFRAID OF HEIGHTS O.K.

Almost died, but I MANAGED TO CLIMB TO THE TOP!!!!

YAY-NESS!!

But I died there.

No more energy le. LOL.

Fainting state~~~

Everybody SUPER NICE! All came to ask me if I want sweets, water..

Then still use files to blow me.

Touched(:

Climbed down, WORSE.

Cause now can see the height CLEARLY, I FREAKED OUT.

Not really thou, I was super nervous then my hands in fist throughout everything. :l

Cried midway :X too scared le :l

Managed to get down, fainting spells got worse cause too scared. LOL.

Got onto the bus, think I blacked out at one point?

Cause my friends couldn’t wake me then I never hear anything then suddenly got very faint sounds of my name then I wake up.

LOL. Curious.

Anyway, after that went to DanShui for shopping, 1hour.

Didn’t do much?

Cause not feeling well plus there got nth much to buy.

Back to hotel, reflections.

Oh,

I cried during reflections :l

EMBRASSING!

Cause I wanted to thank everyone.

I prepared myself since I got on the bus after the climb lahh!

Then broke down in the end.

THEY WERE SO NICE ;)

Day 5:

Went to the Taipei University of the Arts.

WOW. Super big and nice(:

Lovely! :DD

Lunched, then on to amazing race.

It was fun, absolutely.

But I was feeling unwell? Cause of ytd maybe.

But I was stubborn, didn’t really want to drag the team so kept quiet and pushed on.

Luckily I didn’t faint or anything.

Only when I reach the final destination,

Suddenly my dizziness got worse.

Maybe cause I not forcing myself le?

But it was much better than ytd’s bah.

Went for a performance at Xi Men Ting, it was robot guitars with dancers.

Didn’t really catch much?

Was too dizzy le.

But I tried not to sleep cause I think it was rude. LOL.

Like I was a dancer myself, so I wouldn’t like others to sleep, so I never sleep lorh.

Anyways, back to hotel, reflections.

Day 6:

National Palace Musuem was the first location.

The artifacts were super nice(:

But the guide cancelled the tour half-way.

He said cause he saw that we were very tired then stop.

I thought he finished lahh.

I did like the tour L

Anyway, after that we had lunch and transferred to Jiufen.

Went for shopping at jiufen, 1.5Hours.

I bought 6 packeds of plums and 2rings(:

I DISLIKE, GREATLY DISLIKE THE PLUM STORE UNCLE. ARGH.

Moving on,

Went to SHILIN NIGHT MARKET!!! (3hours) FINALLY!!

MUHAHAHAHA!

Went on a shopping spree,

Bought tons of clothes and some souvenirs.

Haha! All my friends say I pro cause shop so fast.

Cause I shop for 2hours only, ate for 30mins then slack for 30mins.

LOL.

Anyway, back to hotel and reflections. We sang some songs too(:

Day 7:

Transit at Hongkong,

Back to Singapore((:

FLIGHT AT 8AM

2010-11-27T14:32:00.003+08:00

Going to Taiwan soon~~

as my title suggests, my flight is at 8am,

but need to be at airport at 6am :l

freaking early lahh! T.T

&&,

i haven pack my bag yet.

LOL!!!

lazy :l

shall pack soon~

Coming back on sat at 6pm thou :l

SUPER SHORT JOURNEY. T.T

butbut,

i will still go on shopping spree de :DDDDD

hmmmm. around 25 presents? LOL.

think i will only buy for close friendss(:

PIZZA LINED UP WITH..

2010-11-24T19:30:00.003+08:00

Yesterday i had pizza for dinner,

our SRGCE Taiwan dinner.

Supposedly my group is in charge of the food and everything,

since we are the welfare group.

BUT, since i was absent so MANY times,

i only knew that the dinner was ytd at around 530pm when dinner was 6+pm.

LOL.

Today was weird?

supposed to have

Econs from 8-9,

Math from 9-10,

Phy from 11-12,

CSE from 12-2,

GP from 2-430,

Guzheng from 430-630.

BUT, in the morning,

our teachers SUDDENLY found out that they cant attend the lectures.

so, lessons were cancelled until 12pm.

Everyone in the Econs LT5 was like: WTH?

BUTBUTBUT we had one econs teacher to stay back to teach us till 9,

then 'end school' liao.

CSE was also pushed back till 1pm.

BUT! [[i realise i use a lot of butsss]

our CSE teacher said that only econs and math was cancelled.

Other lessons were supposedly as per norm.

but, when news of the 'no lessons' schedule was out,

the whole school became somewhat empty in like 30mins?

hahas.

anyway,

I used 7 BUT in my ‘passage’~ LOL.

shall go and look for things to do~

bored~

i'm waiting for my post-its and book to arrive~~

ALLOCATION OF CLASSES...

2010-11-22T18:45:00.003+08:00

Went to school today, as per norm.

checked out my J2 class----2S16.

same as Jeremy, Yunshan, Fungyee, Mich.

Ziyun Keith Keefe Fad Abi different class thou---2S15 :((

but, still hope we can keep in contact(:

5 of us from 1S18 'amalgamated' with 1S17 to form 2S16.

hahas.

hope next year i will still be able to have a fun and lovable class like 2010's 1S18 bahh((:

I WILL MISS YOU GUYS :l

Times are changing.

Things change, people change.

It's an inevitable fact that everything changes as time flies.

It's the way you handle the change that makes a difference.

BIRTHDAYS~

2010-11-22T01:19:00.005+08:00

TODAY IS MY DARLING BESTIE'S 17TH BIRTHDAY!! :DDD

She's like finally OLD. LOL.

Anyways,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELIZSA GOH/MRS LEE :DDDD

SEE!! THE GIRL ON THE LEFT!!!! PRETTY RIGHT!!?

[too bad~ she’s a MRS(:]

I ❤❤❤ her SOOOO MUCH!!

Known this CRAZY girl for 5years now, ever since sec1.

We’ve spent the five years playing wildly, of course, not forgetting the LOBSTER, ANNABELLE’L(:

Kbox, www, study sessions, etc..

We went out together manymany times but I still miss the days where we could all meet up and have a gathering/lunch together.

Now, with all of us in different schools, I still hope we can meet up more frequently okay! Things would not be the same without your..

Next year, I in j2, I will be more busy le. Mel in poly2 also will be busier plus 90% of her time taken by MR.LEE [LOL] && belle in poly1 also L

2011 MEL AND BELLE IN SAME SCHOOL LE!!

YOUR TWO CANNOT GANG UP BULLY ME ARHH!!

HAHA! J

Anyway,

Today is mel’s birthday!!!!!!!!!

Hope you have a GREAT&WONDERFUL day okay! JJJ

I managed to let you go..

2010-11-19T02:07:00.001+08:00

HELLO.

Life’s been going on as usual, nothing new.

School restarted again, having lectures every day.

Was absent on tues, so I missed out the whole chapter of maclaurin’s expansion.

Let’s hope I can still cope.

Bought a new econs J2 lecture book, intend to study in dec.

Hmmmmm.

Michelle and I made a study pact:

-after we come back from our SRGCE trip, we shall study EVERY DAY.

-of course, with a bit of fun and breaks in between(:

-&& we gonna find part-time jobs together too!

HAHA(:

Shall go to sleep now, today still got school :l

IT STARTED WITH WWW,

2010-11-11T23:10:00.002+08:00

11/11, THURSDAY.

Had TONS of FUN today!!!

Celebrated Elvira's birthday today with Ziyun.

at WildWildWet :D

played, chatted, screamed from 2 to 6,

went for dinner at 7pm(:

Had Seoul Garden..

we ordered A LOT.

like seriously A LOT.

All of us ate until we want to die liao.

Ziyun EPIC.

she wanted to eat black pepper fish, but she only want 1.

so, we called the waiter...

Ziyun: "can i have ONE piece of black pepper fish only?"

[[Me and elvira laugh until siao]]

Waiter: (Looked stunned, as though he heard wrongly) "Why?"

[[LAUGHS]]

Ziyun: "huh? cause just want one only" *embarrassed*

Waiter: "Okay"

[[[HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! EPIC!!]]]

JOKE OF THE DAY.

aniwaes,

today is the first time i ate so much till i vomitted-.- [[from what i recall]]

T.T

Overall,

TODAY IS SUPERBLY FUN & ENJOYABLE!!!!! :DDDD

I dont have a choice, do I?

BEFORE IT BEGAN,

2010-11-09T21:59:00.002+08:00

Posting more frequently now..

hmmmmm.

think cause i not studying bahh.

hahas.

becoming more slack le :(

aniwaes,

my OP is on 15nov, next monday.

lets hope everything will go well! :D

need to prepare questions and slides and scripts :l

JIAYOU SR105!

事情已经圆满地落幕了。我也该方手了。。

It's hard...

2010-11-05T22:25:00.002+08:00

Forgive many things in others; nothing in yourself. --Ausonius

Choices have consequences.

How am i to choose what i want when i know there are dire consequences waiting for me?

I can pretend to forget,

pretend to dont care,

but i cant pretend it didnt happen.

I cant pretend it was my imagination.

I cant pretend that everything's fine and alright.

Maybe,

just maybe,

one day, i will meet some human that will help me out of this.

but, till then,

It's hard for me to believe.

PROJECT WORK-OP

2010-11-04T23:37:00.002+08:00

Finally finished our puppet video for our OP(:

shall rest early today~

ahh. i'm tired..

I'M EASILY DECEIVED.

2010-11-02T18:21:00.004+08:00

HIHI.

Had my chinese A level paper ytd,

FINALLY.

Was lucky cause the 3part of the paper our school had practiced it before.

even thou, different questions-.-

But i'm confident that i will at least get a pass, so next year no need take chi le! :)

Had PW today and for the next few days.

as usual.

Kinda boring? and rush.

Our group still haven complete the video!! :l

hymph.

stay back and do bahh~~

Short post, gonna go off le(:

不要骗我。

我很傻，很容易相信你说的话。。。

我很怕，不知道为什么，就是很怕，很怕。

可能是因为我怕你骗我，跟我玩，我却当真。

EVERYTHING'S PERFECT,

2010-10-25T20:42:00.005+08:00

LONGLONGLONG time no post,

shall talk about my promo results.

General paper-S

China Studies in English-S

Chinese-B

Math-D

Physics-D

Econs-C

my Physics and Math grades dropped since MYE :l

overall score for the whole year was 52/80...

i really hate 21 October 2010, Thursday.

It's reality, but why?

why? why? why?

Fast-forward all the project work and chinese lessons~~

TODAY:

1S18 went crazy!

had chinese from 8-10 and pw all the way till 5pm, as usual.

for pw,

we were like sleeping or doing our work.

at the end, that's the point when all of us went crazy.

we sang

"If we hold on together"

"Happy Birthday" x17

"SRJC school song"

"Barney".

We sang and screamed and shouted,

so loud that even the next block at the first level could hear us from the second floor.

it's like OMG lahh.

then we like disturbing the upcoming J2 A levels.

but, dont really think we care that much too.

Our 1S18 perfect little moments and memories are kept within me,

and will stay with me throughout J

JIAYOU!

I LOVE 1S18'10 FOREVER JJJ

Torn;

2010-09-20T23:41:00.004+08:00

How did i get from bring a simple, happy girl to a girl that is torn and tattered?
with scars and pain and fear?
as the world revolves,
things change.
it matters not why, but how.

When we were young,
we played with everyone.
there was no discrimination.
no backstabbing.
no fights that could ruin our friendship.
we were contented with just having a friend to play with.
we were willing to share.

as we grow older, supposedly wiser,
we note the differences between each other.
we group people and discriminate some.
we become biased.
a few years gone, we become back-stabbers.
we became two-faced bitches.
we gossip.
we fight.
we become rebelious.
we become menacing and ruthless.
we start to hate.

As we grow older and older,
age day by day,
aren't we supposed to become wiser?
grow smarter?
why is it then,
the naive little ones can be so unbiased and selfless?
so much more than we, the 'grown-ups' would ever be?

That's just how it is...

2010-09-19T23:55:00.002+08:00

Unappreciated. Thats all that i feel.
Why am i even making an effort?
Everything is just the same.
The pain just amplifies.

BUFFET!

2010-08-15T21:30:00.004+08:00

Yesterday:
woke at 9am, studied at bishan library with ziyun, michelle && ying.
yeeyew supposed to turn up but he lazy. hahas!
aniwaes,
study session WASNT efficient :(
next time i should study by myself bahh?
&& go earlier to get a table. :l
OYA,
I LOVE KOI'S GRASS JELLY MILK TEA!!
(quoted from Mrs.Wong) the grass jelly is so... JELLY! :DDDDDD
shall drink that next time too^^
home-d at 830pm..

Today:
woke at 10am,
went for buffet lunch at vienna restaurant with family^^
to celebrate my birthday in advance :D
YUMYUM!!
ate until bloated lahh. super nice :DD
oya,
bought another 3books by Cecelia Ahern~
love her books :)

i shall go mugg now!

i'll be fine... i just need an extra effort to put on a smile and be carefree(:
Hug me and tell me everything's gonna be okay...

--Christian D Larson❤

2010-07-29T00:34:00.008+08:00

Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.To talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person you meet. To makeall your friends feel that there is something in them. To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. To think only of the best, to work only for the best and expect only the best. To be enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own. To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to greater achievements of the future. To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature you meet a smile. Togive so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time tocriticise others. To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear and too happy to permit the presence of trouble. ~Christian D Larson

SICK..

2010-07-06T12:16:00.003+08:00

Okays.
sick, again.
cough flu headache.
my throat hurts.
i dont even want to open my mouth to talk :(
flu, since... a mth ago?
during june holis :l
headache cause nose blocked.
and random headache also. LOL.

went to see doc,
as i was walking,
i felt like floating sia.
like gravity is not strong enough to hold me to the ground.
i seriously dont feel like i am stepping/walking on earth :l
aniwaes,
i frequent the private clinic so many times the receptionist also know me liao-.-

there's gonna be a physics test today.
i studied ytd MID-night sia. WTH.
then today absent. OMG.
waste my time to sleep. LOL.

shall continue my sleep bahh..

ONE DOWN.

2010-06-26T16:16:00.003+08:00

woots!
finished cse.
wrote v.v.v.v.v.v.v.v little as compared to others.
i seriously didnt know what to write.
i dont even know why i chose 'China's Flexible Policy on the Yuan' to review-.-
maybe cause if review good got extra points.
but i think is cause i manage to fins more recent articles on it-.-
aniwaes,
DONE WITH CSE!!!!
YAY!!
not really. still got trigger notes :(

OKAYS, slacking again.
tonight attempt physics.

tomo need to go for GZ.
just to help move the GZ only sia.
waste time=.=

URGH!

2010-06-26T13:36:00.002+08:00

awoken by 12plus1,
cause of some annoying kids playing and making loud noises plus screaming.
OMG.
they damn noisy lahh.
ANNOYING.
(i know, i was an annoying kid too=.=)

aniwaes,
supposed to go school today to self-study.
but... woke up late-.-
gonna try and do cse thou.
since monday got cse liao.
cause i just saw our new timetable.
its sucks.
aiya,
everything sucks lahh-.-
odd week we end school at 6pm on monday somemore.
longest.
no wonder it's called monday blues-.-

i'm gonna try and do physics too.
lessons on monday.
tomo then do econs since lessons on tues?
hahas. i'm a lazy pig :D

oya,
we changed math teacher && econs teacher le~
mrs.sim says we will like our econs teacher.
i wonder about math thou...

okays,
gonna attempt cse now.
if i even manage to read finish all the articles i found and actually understand it.
if i dont,
i think i will die on monday.
since i never upload trigger notes somemore.
:(

TOY STORY 3

2010-06-25T16:16:00.006+08:00

OMG!!!
today rain like hell lahh.
(it's just cause i going out of my warm comfy home/bed)
i walking to school that time like in war like that-.-
my umbrella like going to fly away anytime soon,
plus i bring laptop. OMG.
got umbrella like no umbrella. still soaked lahh.
then my shoe wet-.-
got squeakysqueaky sound de. LOL.
some parts of school was flooded thou :DD

aniwaes,
GZ ended 1hour early today~~
ended at 11pm.
did the same things, but need to play the song with more emotion :)

after that studied at library,
did math. tutorial 10.
was somewhat expecting it to be tough,
but easy lahh-.-
library closed at 12 thou :(
studied outside m2-3 with ziyun,
finish the math then slack.
LOL.
we chatting then i still duno how to do econs.
the essay still okay, copy from lecture.
CS is gone case.
home-d at 240?

&&,
as for my heading, no, i did not watch toy story 3 today.
watched it last sat thou. not bad bahh?
found out that the teachers (all?) and some kids were going to watch Toy Story 3 lahh!
2 buses full of humans lehh!
OMG. so CUTE!
thenthen,
the teachers booked 1 cinema just for this. COOL lahh.
it's their CIP thou :D
i dont mind doing CIP by taking care of kids and movie-ing :D
okay, maybe not the kids part. :l

hmmm, gonna slack le~
althou, still got tons of hmk left...

ECONS
PHYSICS THERMAL ENERGY
MATHS TOPICAL
CSE NOTES AND REFLECTION
GP

hmmm.
can finish econs and physics,
(but physcis seems to be tough.)
thenthen math and cse like gone-.-
GP will do bahh :D

HOMEWORK :(

2010-06-24T19:27:00.003+08:00

studied in school today and ytd..

ytd studied with ziyun, yingying came later.
then after that went to study at macs with ying at 430, library close.
completed econs corrections and 2/5 of physics ONLY lahh.
OMG.
wasted tons of time.
went home around 8pm,
chat on phone again,
slack then sleep liao.
=.=

today had GZ in the morning.
i still hesitating to quit or not lehh. :l
dance like fun lahh. but GZ also okokay.
at least i have passion for it :l
hmmmmm.
but the 自由发挥 for the dance auditions really turn me off-.-
i cannot do that de lorhh.
sian.
duno lahh!
after GZ studied in library alone.
manage to complete the physics worksheet.
i believe i took quite long thou.
3.5hours for 3.5chapters. hahas!
but did only 18 qns, with some blanks=.=

aniwaes,
found out something shocking ytd.
i didnt know there was econs cs and essay hmk lahh.
then supposed to do today..
but came home earlier to rest a bit,
cause i read the econs thing and i attempted to FIGURE OUT the question and ans for around 1/2hour and obtained nothing-.-
butbut i took the long bus ride home and manage to finish reading up/revising for the production and cost chap thou :DD
lucky at least my plan for the econs chap and physics ws worked :)

hmmmmm,
gonna study tomo bahh, in school again.
maybe bring laptop.
cause physics and math lessons in the laptop :l
have GuZheng tomo also-.-

BAD BAY~

2010-06-22T22:29:00.003+08:00

hmmm. woke up late today, 3pm.
LOL.
plan to study FAILED.
DIE.
tomo going school, study plan cant fail liao :)

hmm, got a call from my cca teacher.
hesitating to let me go taiwan or not,
since i have LBP and missed quite a few lessons.
i cant be bothered thou.
like, if i'm not allowed to go taiwan,
i will stop going for GZ, or maybe just go for fun,
not gonna be serious.
i'd rather join dance, even if i dont get to go taiwan.
I LOVE DANCE, much more than Guzheng.
i made a bad choice in the beginning of the year,
i'm regretting it,
but i hope to make amendments now.
either by just giving it my all for GZ,
or just quit GZ and hop to dance if they accept me.

which should i choose?

OWL.

2010-06-22T03:04:00.003+08:00

long time since i last posted..
lazy. :X

&&, THANKS BELLE! for helping me change blogskin :D

aniwaes,
WASTED the june holis.
was intending to study most of the time, but ended up playing-.-
hmmmm.
really hope i can rush things out by this friday.
like, finish my holis hmk (physics ws and econs correction) by tomo, latest wed.
then finish my online work by wed or maybe thurs if the above dragg.
then i'll start my revision and study ahead a little :l
i'm gonna start mugg again.
and this time, i wont stop till my promos are over :)

as for the heading,
i've been sleeping at 630am these few days,
waking up at 430pm cause my mum called me up.
so,
i'm back to my nov/dec holis diet and sleeping habits:
sleep 'EARLY' wake up late.
then everyday eat dinner can liao.

amazingly, i really dont feel hungry AT ALL when i wake up. LOL.
one meal a day :)
(bad habit, i know~)

hai,
need to change back to normal human de timing le.
need to get out of my miniature happy world, get back to harsh cold reality.

JIAYOU BAHH, H-HUISHAN!

LAST POST OF MAY

2010-05-30T23:21:00.003+08:00

Okays. been away longlong.
lazy blog~
so mafun :l
butbut,
since im bored, shall do blogging today :D

FLUNKED my MYE, :((

GP-i didnt feel like taking exam, completed the paper, no feeling-.-
Chinese-same as GP=.=
Physics-competed paper, LUCKY no upthrust :D okokay?
Math-missed out 9marks :l
Economics-didnt finish paper2 partb :((
CSE-gone. :(((

hope to get at least 50/90 thou... :l
shall work harder..

but, been slacking thou :D
like keep going out:
study dates become movie plus chatting plus phototaking plus eating dates.
then at home watch anime :DD
iim still tired thou :l
I NEED TO HIBERNATE!!
need to sleep a LOT. :(

tomo got chinese oral. promo de.
DIE. my chinese sucks ttm now.
hesitating not to go, take mc.
but my chinese teacher SO NICE!
she still sms me remind me got oral tomo at 830.
dont go like so bad T.T

OYA!
today damn funny.
went to changi to do pw with michelle jasmine ryan.
AS USUAL~ =.=
thenthen me and jasmine went to eat at popeyes, michelle had tuition.
obviously i keep telling her to eat more since we share :D
hahas!
then going home.
on the way to the 'busstop' at changi,
jasmine and i chatchat lahh:
she was like '死baby' (referring to my laptop, since it hit her :D)
then!
one uncle pushing a pram with a baby inside turn and STARE in awe at jasmine.
i laugh like siao lahh!!!
OMG. hilarious.
then she also 走路不看路，bang until some uncle.
HAHAS!!!
she blurblur de lorhh! so funny xD

aniwaes, going to sleep soon.....
soon...

Give My Love...

2010-05-02T03:14:00.002+08:00

Give My Love

When I look in your eyes I can see that you
Want to be with me but you’re so scared
And I don’t know what to say or do
But the tears keep falling from your eyes
And I know that
Times won’t change my love
And I can’t do nothing to keep you

Oh, I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night…

As the hours pass away
You think that love ain’t here to stay
Feel a beat from your chest
But you don’t give doubt a moment’s rest
You dream the future and all you see is dark
Listen to your heart, baby, the truth will set sparks

Now I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night

Now I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that time won’t change my love
Take my love all through the night

I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love, through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night

Now I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night

Our Love Will Always Last...

2010-05-01T23:50:00.002+08:00

Our Love Will Always Last

As we walk this land
Side by side, hand in hand
I know that some clouds may pass
But if we hold on tight
And love with all our might
Then the thorns in our life will never last

And the roads may sometimes be unpaved
You may think that our love cannot be saved
Though the world out there
May be cold to all we share
I have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last…

See the sunrise in the sky
Kiss the sunset as we lie
At night, I’ll never leave your side
But I know someday
I’ll be gone, and you’ll be gray
Oh, darling, wish that I could heal your pain…

Though the world out there
May be cold to all we share
I have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last…

And if we hold on tight, stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last

IMPACT.

2010-04-19T21:19:00.000+08:00

EWWWWWWW!

2010-04-19T18:18:00.004+08:00

didnt attend school today :l
[ this is becoming a usual sight! :( ]

aniwaes,
went to hougang polyclinic at 8am to change dressing.
around 840 then my turn..
took of my humongous bandage,
it was bloody lah.
like super bloody that kind.
the bandage sooo thick also can seep all the way through :( (EWWW!)
then i finally see my toe.
OMG!!! HORENDOUS.
its like 1/3 of my toe nail gone! all the way through sia.
OMG. the nurse at CGH told me my nail will become smaller.
does she mean my toe nail will never grow back that part or will grow back but smaller?
F. if she meant never grow back so smaller.
disgusting lahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OMG.
i see le want to puke.
the nurse at hougang polyclinic then help to me clean my toe and change dressing,
smaller now cause not so much blood le.
iim still fretting over my toe de toe nail.
am sooo gonna sue CGH (if possible) if my toe nail fails to grow back.
i specifically told the doc i WANT it to grow back so dont make it permanent.
shall see how :l

aniwaes,
totally no appetite after i saw my toe :(
superduper sad :(((
hopes it grows back soon and dont get in-growth le :(((

&&, wed's appointment is at 815am.
soooo, will be in school around 9plus am.
late. LOL.
butbut i got TWENTY days MC(><)

OPERATION DONE AND GONE.

2010-04-16T17:08:00.004+08:00

finished operation..
hmmmm.
i want to say a few things :

·CGH servicing not very good? like the nurses v.good.. but not the waiting time.appointment
was at 10am, i waited till 1pm then operation :l

·operation was scary-when putting the LA, DAMN PAIN :( but after that numb le.

·i could hear the sound of the operation :X plus feel it? :l

·my toe is humongous now. LOL.

·MC FOR 3WEEKS-20DAYS

·CANNOT walk for next few days, best not walk at all till next appointment-26'04'10 :l

·MAY/MOST LIKELY (will) have a BLOODY TOE :(

·2types of PAINKILLERS (T.T) 1antibiotics 1gastric medi.

·am currently afraid it will hurt like hell although i ate the painkillers already(><)

am gonna be missing school regualury till next appointment since needa go polyclinic change dressing :((

OPERATIONAL FRIDAY

2010-04-16T00:15:00.003+08:00

OMG.
OPERATION TODAY!!! :(
iim kind worried,
cause i dont want my toe to lose its toe nail :'(
butbut, its for the best :)

aniwaes,'school for the past few days (obviously).
elaboration on today.
summarise thou.

GP-Test, compre. DIE. :(

PE-Slacked :)

Break-PW consultation.

Break for CSE-Study CSE.

Econs lecture-samesame(:

Math tutorial-am loving mathematical induction. as expected, FLUNKED my summation test :l (i dont like the teacher & method of teaching!)
FLUNK my math test too-45min test, i DAYDREAM. last 15mins i still left 1b, 2b, 3a and 3b. which means i only did 1a and 2a. LOL. i totally daydream all the way. got 10/20. OMG (><)

Econs tutorial-fine? but i prefer mrs.tan.. hopes she get well soon thou^^ (&& her baby)

CSE-essay test, died. didnt manage to write my conclusion=die. :((
butbut, i hope AT LEAST my points are correct even thou not fully elaborated...

studied in school till 9pm?
then the dumb and hilarious part-dinner with keefe.
LOL.
i CHOKED on COKE 17TIMES, (idoit!)
then laugh until stomach pain, about to die.
keep laughing. LOL.
he act cute can!!! its hilarious larhhs!!! OMG(><)
especially no. ONE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!(><)
(when i going home on bus, was like giggling to myself-some humans seem to think iim crazy ><)

aniwaes,
lazy to elaborate.
just spent an hour laughing like crazy and unable to eat or drink properly (><)

HOPES tomo operation can be feeling-less;
plus,
NO PAIN after the operation :)
(impossible thou. 2 experienced humans say can feel tinglish, can feel something. && doc say need painkillers :l )

MCs.

2010-04-05T19:24:00.003+08:00

Okays.
missed school AGAIN.
this is like what?
the 5th time iim missing school due to sickness.
okays.
i missed school 4times due to illness.

today was an exception.
went to get operation LETTER and appointment.
apparently,
i will be missing school on thurs as well.
hymp :l
iim like MISSING ALL THE PW LESSONS!!!
one of the MOST IMPT lessons-since Alevels is this year.
GOD.
dont know how am i going to survive.

&&, i hope mr.foo dont write in the name list that i didnt hand in file today :l
i was ABSENT.

been missing tons of lessons:
didnt have chinese for 2weeks(plus this-i will only have a 1hour chinese lesson).
physics as well :(((

siians~~
i dont like to miss out on my fav.subjects (makes up half of everything-.-) :
Physics; Maths; Econs; PW. :(((
i seriously wonder if i can get back to the regular lifestyle again-rushrushrush.
iim like damnDAMN slack now larhhs.
not feeling the pressures of JC yet.
die. tomo then i will feel pressure le.
missed out two tests too :(

lets see...
tomo have..

GP -ok bahhs? v. long nv see her le. LOL
Maths lecture - :D
Econs tutorial - :DDD
Physics - :DDD (like finally? had 2hours of physics last week ONLY.)
Cse - hmmmmm. neutral.
CT period - errr. what are we doing???
Chinese - (my one and only chinese lesson in two weeks><)
5-6pm -Cse test?
7-730pm -PW consultation.

[when am i having my math test???]

3APRIL~

2010-04-03T13:34:00.000+08:00

firstly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUNLENG~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEORGE~

hahas. okays.
iim lazy to elaborate-summarised version.

went out today.
orchard.
caught "Remember Me" at Shaw,
i damndamn pity the little girl!! :(
aniwaes, the beginning of the show just made me feel like i wasted $9.50.
overall not soooo bad, still pass :D
thenns we(mel, belle, me) crapped tons :)
home-d around 9plus10~

lets meet up again sometime soon okays? :D

さよなら

MY TOE!!!!!!!! :(((

2010-04-02T01:04:00.004+08:00

MY TOE NEED OPERATION PRONTO!! :((((((((((((((((
II NEED MY LONG TERM MC TOO~ [if i can get one]

gonna see doc on sat morning...

aniwaes, today:

lessons, woke up late. was supposed to meet ms.yeo for pw from 7-730AM.
late. stupid.

GP-had GP test, hope can pass. but chances are SLIM :l

PE-exempted. needs long term mc thou.

brk-THE ANNOYING ORANGE!! (HAHAHAHAHAS!!! ><)

brk for me and yingying, cse students-study :)

econs lecture-lecture lorhh.

maths-i SERIOUSLY ABHORE my CARELESSNESS.
i am able to score full marks for all my 3 quizzes, but all 3 careless. DAMN!
&&, today damn shocked.
once i came in class, my teacher was like "huishan, you joining the maths talent ???".
i was like "for what? dont want"
"cannot, i sign you up already."
".........."
H3 paper you KNOW!!! H3!!!! DIE.
lucky got yunshan, my twin mountain join me :D plus paper cloud. hahas.

econs tutorial-went through essay :D

cse-essay as well...

didnt go for physics night today :((
cause mr.soh was like who going for today's physics night arhh?
then i say "ME"
then slience le. LOL.
butbut since alone, go watch movie with them lorhh.
since i only, so far, have 1 qns to ask him :)
monday~~

aniwaes,
caught "Clash of the Titans" today.
DAMN NICE. love it :D
funny too :DD
before thats, had dinner at Ajisen Ramen.
I DAMN WASTE FOOD :(
i manage to finish the A'la Carte (fried tofu:D).
Ramen i eat only 2/5.
drink i drink 1/2.
i damn FULL/BLOATED le.
like serious.
cant eat anymore le.
i keep telling myself to eat.
but cmi. :(
next time cannot eat Ajisen Ramen le.
unless i can find a person to share with me.
if not i damn waste food. :((

butbut,
after movie chatted, then home-d :DDDDD

my toe need operation le.

cant drag anymore.

its like getting damn serious :(

i see le so 心痛。 :(

i pity my toe D:

GET WELL SOON TOE :D

cant stop dwelling on the past...

2010-03-31T23:11:00.003+08:00

i keep falling deeper.
why?
i wanna get out of this black hole.
i should get out of this black hole.
but i cant.
im trying.
but trying doesnt get me anywhere.
cause i want to get out.
my heart doesnt.

WASTED.

2010-03-31T01:00:00.003+08:00

am here cause feel like using the com,
but not fb or anything else.
i dont even feel like posting larhhs.
just here cause have the desire to use com.
hahas.

im like seriously damn wobbly now.
medicine always make me weird-wobbly, weak.
hmmmm.
didnt use to be like that in the past.
maybe cause i become weaker le :l
&&, shocked that i lost weight.
damn shock.
cause i've been eating my meals more regularly le.
then lose weight.
LOL.
aniwaes,
wasted the whole day away by sleeping & visiting the doctor.
revised maths thou..
&& econs.
but haven finish the econs essay.
&& pw still not completed, DUE TO MY STUPIDITY YTD.
argh.
thinking of it makes me PISSED OFF.
whatever.
&& my cse also not done. die :l

hmmmm.
something's wrong with me.
i mean my brain seems to be sleeping.
like i feel nth,
my reaction seems to be damn slow,
my body damn weak,
my normal actions (turning around) can make me go dizzy.
doc gave me 2days MC.
but am gonna return school ~~tomo~~ today :(

ARGHHH!

2010-03-30T02:37:00.005+08:00

PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW.
DAMN PISSED OFF.
WHY?
i spent damn long doing finish ONE pw section-amalgamation.
THEN i lose it due to my stupidity.
spill water, ink smurgered. NEED TO REDO.
AHHHHHHHHH! T.T
SICK.
and by SICK,
i mean iim sick plus sick of doing pw le.
GAHHHH!
i seriously even wonder if a can make it to school tomo.

[ heavy rain today, went walking for 1.4km with ziyun, yunshan, jiaxian and yeeyew.
hahas! my idea>< see! now ii sick. tsktsktsk... ]

IIM STILL PISSED OFF >:(

RUSHHHH!

2010-03-28T16:39:00.005+08:00

Okays.
keith just taught me physics, gonna do it after post :D
am eating my luch too.
LOL.
at 440pm. HAHAS.
aniwaes,
tons of hmk to do.
like 4ESSAYS, math, GP.
4essays lehhs!!!
OMG.
dont need to sleep today le :l
shall finish my lunch, use com, start work at 540pm :D

PS: i HATE prawns.
my mum brought live prawns larhhs.
when the prawn was like jumping all around the sink.
OMG. freaked me out lahh T.T
SCARY!!! :(

EARTH HOUR HUMANS!

2010-03-27T19:00:00.004+08:00

okays. am gonna participate in earth hours BAHH.
SHOULD be. MAYBE.
cause i need to study and do my work!
how am i supposed to study/do hmk in the dark? =.=
aniwaes,
see first bahh^^

did nth today.
after this post, study all the way.
aiming to finish physics and cse, 2essays today.
plusplus revise maths econs gp.
hahas. rushrushrush! :(

A MILLENIUM LATER...

2010-03-26T21:43:00.004+08:00

okays.
LONGLONGLONG time no post le.
wanted to post every month once, at the last day de.
cause v.busy mah.
butbut wanted to post today, so post.
hahas(><)

aniwaes,
summary of march : (OMG. totally reminds me og GP & CHINESE)
no one birthday :(

had 3 math test-inequalities, binomial and AP & GP.
inequalities i got 4/7, careless 3 mark. (WTH?)
binomial i got 4/7, careless 3 mark AS WELL (!!!)
AP & GP-jus had test today, but i careless (found out that i forgot -ve sign) so max 6/7. (SIAN!)
&&, i STILL love math thou.. just not my careless mistakes.

had physics test as well.
did badly. okays, not v.v.v.v.vbad that kind, but below my expectations.
got 24/40. :((( && i careless 9marks. (ARGH!)
physics is overall interesting.
so, i STILL like it. maybe more than i did before. cause its like fun :DD

Econs test-haven get back paper, next week then get back :D
econs actually quite fun too^^
its like once you grasp the concept, everything about that topic becomes simplier and easier :)
econs quiz-omg, didnt manage to finish the paper.
why? cause its like 10mins only. then i thought got a lot of time, slowly do, write neatneat (or not). then i look up, 1min left and iim like jus beginning-.- (partially cause i draw wrong diagram)
manage to rush, but missed out the last two-three sentences :(

China studies in english-nth much? studying confucian now. LOL.
studied china, history.
its okay bahh. but like v.hard to memorise everything.
now also studying how to write essay.
i get the format, the way to write.
open book EXAM i sure score high. LOL.

GP-hmmmmm. i dont know what to say.
i mean its like i dont know how to write for the essay.. (format i get. writing no)
like i cant remember the real-life examples to support my argument.
plus i have totally no interest in this subject. :((
Gp test-scored 17/50. like so OMG lahh (but kind of expected, since i dont know how to do and no interest) :((

Chinese-finished chinese project ytd, deadline today. hahas.
oya, had chinese test too, didnt did well, got 31.5/50.
*hopes* project scores well :D
&&, i still dont like the fact that we have to do summary for chinese. hahas.

Project Work. got out Alevel questions le, started doing.
damn rush, now is doing individual work.
Wk1 & 2 - research and everything else.
Wk 3- draft
Wk 4 - refine
Wk 5 - draft
Wk 6 - refine
Wk 7 - 7may is submission deadline, 6pm.
rush right?
plus first week is GONE le. AHHH.
am sooo gonna do pw everyday.

PE (irrelevant to studies but still,)-fainted almost every pe lesson before the march holidays.
cause low BP. then still run. then dying le i still want to meet quota set by teacher for everyone, but iim not required to lah. since i cmi.
BUT! after march holidays, I CAN RUN!! okays, not so. LOL.
first pe lesson. should be not good or even worst, my teacher only ask me to run 600-700m, rest is 1km, below 7mins. however, due to my stubborn-ness, i ran 1km. &&, i ran UNDER 7mins, 6.29mins. && win two of my class mates plus never faint(although weak and maybe going to)!! :DD
okays. 2nd pe lesson. somewhat like circuit. tough larhhs.
i ran 1.6KM this time :DDD WITHOUT FAINING. [sounds like primary school><]
butbut within the run, the other stuffs i never do. i only run (><)
i think is cause around every 400m ran, 1 rested 1min (since they do the pushups position etc... && also is cause we rotate).
butbut last 400m i almost blacked out when finishing. since iim pushing myself over my limits... expected. butbut still had strength after rest for a while :D
i want to pass my napfa this year.. and next. cause like i dont want to be the only one that can only watch and faint :((

am gonna work extremely hard for this 2years.
aint going to be empty words :D

POPPING IN AND OUTTA MY HEAD, AS AND WHEN YOU LIKE.

2010-02-28T21:36:00.009+08:00

THURSDAY-25'02'10
had 2hours of GP first thing in the morning.
stupid, irritating plus sleepy.
its like, she believes that we have a prob. but she doesnt know the fact-the prob lies with HER.
aniwaes, had PE after that.
DIED. 3rounds NIA-1200km.
its like chest tight, no air, no matter how much air ii suck in, no oxygen in my heart.
dying.
became damn weak.
totally no strength.
then had milo, isotonic drink plus some porridge..
better by tons :D
the rest of the day...
surviving.
thenn, had physics extra lesson from 530 to 730.
SUPER HILARIOUS.
its like we talk and laugh so loud in the jade room of the library..
&&, the FUNNIEST PART of all-our whole class went into health and wellness. except for 4.
xDD
its like ii got in too~~
&& iim like, OMG. my bmi 18 and ii got in. WTH? since when bmi 18 is overweight le~.
hahas!!!
&&, its like out of 100% of the JC1s, 98.9% got into health and wellness=.=
aniwaes,
after all that laughter,
went to buy cakee and whip cream for yeeyew with yunshan^^
home-d after that.

FRIDAY-26'02'10
YEEYEW'S BIRTHDAY~ :D
went to school at 730 for the wellness thing [><]
butbut, obviously, its the school's prob && that we do not have health and wellness :D
sooo, studied and chatedd till 830.
schooled as usual,
then the PARTY starts!
had cake, whip cream, and chocolate syrup.
know what it means?
MESSY!
hahas xD
cake on face, whip cream all over, chocolate syrup all over too!!
the choco syrup looked like blood thou>< [pic on fb~]
ii seriously wonder how all of them gonna wash the stains off, especially yeeyew && keefe.
HAHAS!!
cleaned the canteen up after that :P
its like we 'book' the canteen like that-there was NO ONE in our huge area.
hahas :3
&&, bathed after all that funnnn^^.
had chinese,
ii believe that my chi teacher believe iim a good girl-.-
had guzheng as well.
took the guzheng home :D
it was humongous.
ii wonder how am ii supposed to bring it back to school on wed..

SATURDAY-27'02'10
SENTOSA~
kinda lazy to elaborate the morning part, but,
summarise-we wanted to meet at 12pm. then change to 11pm. then late until become 12pm.
ahahs xD
aniwaes,
was HILARIOUS, FUN, CRAZY.
am sooo loving 1S18~ :D
long story cut short,
had dinner at vivo, sushi tei.
piics are up on fb.
❤❤❤
hahas.
after dinner, chatted on rooftop of vivo, the water area :DD
then, the funny part comes-
keefe yingying yeeyew ziyun playing big 2.
then keefe was like-ii confirm win this game de.
then ii was like-okay larhhs. if you never win then you jump into the water.
keefe-okayokay. wait. no.
too bad~
HAHAS.
&&, HE LOST!
and of course, he ran.
hahas xD
got one unknown malay boy shouted 'eh, be a man lah.' xD
but keefe was like 'no. ii dont want to be a man' :P
super funny^^
thennn,
me and ziyun chased him to the boys toilet.
of course, ii just ran in.
LOL.
ii was like looklook [AFTER ii was already at the cubicle><] then luckily, NO ONE^^
keefe was on the top of the cubicle xl
then ziyun sray water at him, ii was like okay le la, he no clothes.
but, no stopping ziyun xl
soo, keefe 'jumped' around the 4 cubicles.
locked all four doors.
but, still got wet larhhs xD
not drenched thou..
HAHAS :DD
out we came..
&&, we forgot to open the doors!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG. ii seriously wonder how the cleaners gonna open it..
know why?
cause keefe was like 'which toilet door dont have key??' so ii was like, 'orhh'
then yeeyew, after we got in cab, was like 'which toilet door have key except for the main door??'
then ii was like 'oh ya.'
but, too late le.
[ ii felt retarded for a moment :l ]
LOL.
aniwaes,
home-d by cabb^^

SUNDAY-28'02'10
AMK, NEBO, STUDY.
was supposed to reach at 12pm,
but reached at 1240pm.
belle was punctual,
yingying reached at 1plus,
yeeyew near 2.
LOL. like all late xD
aniwaes, studied econs, did math.
MOVIE-D thou..
Percy Jackson and the Lighting Thief.
NICCEEE~!
butbut,
gonna stop this habit le.
cant keep watching movie everytime ii go out study :l
sooo, next week and the nextnext week CANNOT GO FOR MOVIE!
:DDDD
MUGGGG ALLL THE WAYYYY~~~~!
GANBATTE!

stop popping in & out of my head.

every little thing triggers the little sack of memories.

and every time ii open that up,

voluntarily or not,

it hurts.

my brain just ceases to function but think of it.

thou ii can tie the sack up again,

it still hurts to just slightly let it out.

STUDY DAY OUTING.

2010-02-21T22:18:00.003+08:00

firstly and most importantly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIKA :DDDDD

shall start today.
as my title suggests,
studied today.
woke at 10am~
was slightly late for meeting-12.05pm.
late by five mins..
oya,
study at amk with yingying and yeeyew :D
nebo.
its like super funny larhhs xD
aniwaes,
completed physics,
did math, did china studies.
GP-em... tomo do bahhs?
econs-did le, but the rest duno.
&&,
we caught a movie after studying thou^^
not really after larhhs..
its like mii and yingying are going bonkers over math,
iim stuck at 7, she at 6.
yeeyew was like 'okay le, dont study le. later your go crazy' xD
but, we persisted.
hopped on to china studies thou.
but onli sustained for around 20mins,
movie-d.
both me and yeeyew psycho yingying to watch :D
caught Valentines' Day..
nice show? funny too :DD
after that home-d le.

ii almost fainted on the street.
O.O
when ii came down from the bus,
my legs felt wobbly.
my head was like spinning.
then, up the bridge.
ii see lots of steps.
almost fell backwards, but ii held on to the railing..
then,
almost tripped while walking on a flat piece of land.
its like ii have not enough oxygen in me.
but,
no matter how much ii breathe,
how much air ii take in,
my condition stays the same.
OMG.
am feeling better now,
but very sick-as in feel like vomitting- && lightheaded...

btw,
if you noticed,
my post is very 'messy'.
hahas.
its amazing ii manage to type till here larhhs.

aniwaes,
gonna continue hmk le!~

SICK, SICK, STILL SICK.

2010-02-20T19:08:00.004+08:00

GOD.
shall start on wed.

17'02'10-WEDNESDAY.
SICK.
have not recover from the CNY illness-.-
had school as per normal,
just have random headaches plus keep coughing.
ii rmb ii became mute in front of keefe & ziyun,
stupid larhhs.
both of them laugh at me T.T
plus those at the back too! think got tabitha, liana and fadilah.
LOL.
butbut, when keefe went away,
my voice came back!
then ii so happy ii 'scream' a little.
then ii became a mute again.
but voice return eventually thou^^
&&,
didnt attend CCA.
iim SICK plus headache, so they allow mii to go offfff.
home-d,
rest,
did hmk till night cause afternoon-dinner time ii was sleeping..

18'02'10-THURSDAY.
SICK.
still.
absent from school.
cause' illness got worse.
T.T
forget to call mr.soh or inform classmates sia :l
but informed them at 745am plus cause' ziyun called me up :X
went to see doctor,
went at 11plus,
see the doc at 1plus-.-
so, diagonised with flu, cough, fever.
which, ii already know.
was given 2days MC.
wanted to return tomo, friday.
aniwaes,
home-d, slept the whole day away.
the whole of thursday!!
but manage to do some hmk, since ii was intending to go back to school tomo...

19'02'10-FRIDAY.
STILL SICK.
didnt manage to attend school,
again.
fever, mum say dun go, later pass to other classmates..
slept most of the day too,
was fretting about studies thou.
ii mean, missing out on thurs is already bad enough.
why do ii have to miss out on friday too!?
had more hmk.
tried to do physics,
couldnt really understand.
gonna phone classmates thou^^
maths, okay bahhs?
econs-omg. ii have to try bahhs?
hope ii can catch up thou..
really hope so :D

20'02'10-SATURDAY, TODAY.
was supposed to go temple today,
but cause' ii was sick,
ii was excused, whole family went thou^^
ii slept all the way till they return,
which is lunch time, 12plus.
after that,
did some hmk then rested again.

the medicine makes me drowsy.
ii think.
cause' everytime after ii eat ii feel very... weird.
like iim disconnected from the world,
my reaction is very slow-my brain works slow but my body moves fast?
like when ii turn my head ii feel dizzy, need to take about 1s to collect myself.
then ii cant think too.
lyk when ii was doing physics at night,
the question was really easy.
but ii couldnt get it.
slept, after that got it immediately larhhs.
&&, after eat the medicine,
ii will have no appetite.
couldnt taste anything too T.T

CNY'10 DD:

2010-02-16T15:19:00.004+08:00

1st day of CNY.
valentine's day.
aniwaes,
went to temple in morning,
went to cousins house for lunch,
home-d and back to cousins house.
dinner was delicious^^
yumyum :DD
but, didnt eat much thou..
used to eat 2bowls of sharkfins but only ate 3/4bowl.
no appetite.
headache, feeling weak.
chatted with elvira upstairs in room..
then home-d shortly after :(
then headach got worse.
head feels like its gonna drop.
had cough the past few days, but got WORSE.
whole body weak,
FEVER.
officially sick.
ate 2panadol.
DIDNT manage to do ANY homework at all. (except for maybe reading part of the china studies thing)
shit. :(((((((((((((((((
&&&, stupid yeeyew.
幸灾乐祸 DDD:

2nd day of CNY.
ate 2panadol again,
cause' fever returned.
went to ba-jiu's house to bai nian and have lunch.
then home-d,
lay in bed doing nothing-ii have to keep rereading everything ii read in the china studies thing. so ii figured 'why not rest?'.
had 2 panadol again, 3rd time :l
went over to elvira's house again^^
today more people :D
dinner was 'yumyum' too :DDDDDDDD
still didnt eat much-really no appetite.
helped out in the kitchen for a while,
then went up to find elvira plus the younger ones :X
played,
then we had BBQ marshmallows :D
something like a campfire larhhs.
the 'younger generation' were all sitting outside the door and bbq-ing in a circle^^
some ghost stories,
ii didnt eat much, since ii have a v.bad sore throat.
ate 4 thou^^
2 by my bro, 2 by feng(dont know how to spell her name)-she's in SR too^^
then, went up again, home-d shortly after :(((((
coughing fit acts up AGAIN.
was wondering if its because of the roasted marshmallows :(
aniwaes,
watch-d shows till 3am in the morning.
couldnt sleep :(
was sleep then, but decided to do 1 qns of math, qns 4 onli.
in the end, ii do math untill 4.15am, till qns8.
its like SO SLOW right?
but iim sick~
LOL.
ii should learn to be a good gal and learn to sleep early :l

3rd day of CNY.
was supposed to go malaysia today to visit relatives.
but due my sickness,
ii didnt go :l
so only my mum and bro go :((
cause' my mum say malaysia there v.sunny and 're' so dont go, later get worse.
so, iim like being a very bad girl right now,
using the computer and not studying.
okays.
iim gonna study lerhhs.
NEED.
buaibuais~~~

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR HUMANS!

2010-02-14T01:46:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CNY HUMANS!!

&&,

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

&&,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNN!

hahas. all the HAPPY stuffs gathered in one day.

thou,

the part about HOMEWORK is unhappy.

only manage to finish physics, part china studies, part math, part econs. OMG.

still got math, econ, china studies, GP and PW.

am going gaga T.T

LAZY, TIRED, SLEEPY.

2010-02-11T22:08:00.002+08:00

iim lyk SUPER LAZY to post these days.
summarise everything in a sentence,
its been a busy, long, fun, crazy, hilarious, boring, interesting, tired week :D
stopping here..
shall post nexxt time..
if ii have the TIME.

BUSY TUESDAY.

2010-02-09T20:40:00.004+08:00

Okays. shall post more tomo..
but;

iim here jus to say this:

TUESDAY, TODAY, IS THE BUSIEST DAY OF 2010 SO FAR..

hahas.
its lyk OMG. larhhs.

maths HOMEWORK is to finish up 10sums. ii mean okay larhhs.
but its lyk iim damn sleepy &&v.long nv do math le..

then phy is need to read up,
but lucky ytd we guaiguai read finish the required pages le.
iim lyk super lucky larhhs.
cause ii read till page 15.
mr.soh say read till 13.
lucky no need to bring home the lecture notes :D

aniwaes,
had PE.
chatchat, height and weight, last 10mins-run 2k.
WTH?
cause' 11plus she ask us run.
then 1120we need to move off to another class le-MT.
[although we dont mind missing the lesson...]
ii manage to run ONLY 1KM. super SIIAN!!
cause' after 1k ii lyk gonna blackout le.
suddenly remebered what 4E1 guys and teachers said larhhs : "Dont faint le! Eat more!"
LOL.
so, lucky for me, ii stop after 1 round.
but unlucky for me, ii nv manage to finish 2km :(( && feeling faint.
OMG. ii feel damn WEAK larhhs.

Oyarhhs!!!
GP was our first lesson~
boring :X

had H1 sub oso-China Studies in English :D
but today teacher never come..
missed the first lesson.
hahas.
its lyk only 5 students OUT OF the whole cohort of JC1s took CSE larhhs Xl
2 from our class somemore..
but, we DAMN GUAI^^ all 5 studied on our own.
its lyk the 1hour we can play larhhs,
but all 5 of us studied-.-
duno is guai or geek...
GUAI larhhs :DD

thenn..
post tomo bahhs.
go do my math hmk lerhhs :DD

1ST LESSON DAY.

2010-02-08T18:59:00.003+08:00

as my title suggests,
today is my first lesson day.
school officially starts now^^

had econs-nth much? a bit sian-.-
brk.
chinese-GAHHH. boring.
physics-funny, chatchat? [since its tutorial]
lunch brk.
math-nth much too. the speaker was quite funny-cum-dumb too.
school ended at 1.30pm.

STUDIED, self-study till 4pm.
LOL.
shock riite?
first day we so hard working le.
its lyk me and ziyun had a deal everyday study together.
so, today, we asked our classmates if want to study.
they all damn shocked larhhs Xl
but yunshan was lyk on,
then at first only me, ziyun, yunshan and fungyee.
then after a few minutes,
around half the class came.
hahas.
but some study till 2pm leave le-cause' we can only leave school earliest at 2pm.
then ii studied physics and econs.
read through the lecture notes.
attempted the examples.
its lyk DAMN TOUGH.
lyk cannot do de larhhs!!
ii mean 1 or 2 ii can GUESS, the rest all BLUR lyk hell.
understand SOME of the concepts thou^^

econs was a bit more boring=.=
all words.
yeeyew was lyk "walao, all words, read already not siian mehhs?"
cause' ii was reading a damn long essay for econs.
LOL. the rest was lyk 'ya lorhhs' Xl

aniwaes,
collect MATH^^ lecture book lerhhs.
gonna do some today?
maybe..

gonna sleep early today.
ii say this everyday larhhs.
then everyday sleep at 11=.=
but.
tomo need to be in school slightly earlier and end v.late.
so need my sleep~~
&&&&,
tomo my school ENDS AT 5PM!!
&&&& there's PE!!!!
GAHHH!!!

ARGHH,

2010-02-07T17:38:00.006+08:00

okays.
gonna post about thurs onwards...
long post T.T

04'02'10-THURSDAY
6TH DAY OF ORIENTATION.
played some games and had house time :DDD

then, ii was bullied.
LOLs.
cause' ii was forced by ZIYUN to buy lunch.
so ii did.
then ii OBVIOUSLY couldnt finish it,
was FORCED to eat by : ZIYUN YUNSHAN FUNGYEE YINYIN ZEK =.=
LOL. ZIYUN even SPOONFEED me Xl
ii was lyk bending backwards till ii can touch the floor larhhs=.=
lyk iim falling-.-
aniwaes, after that ii was lyk SUPER BOLATED.
but bought and ate some sour sweets, so iim fine^^

thenn long story cut short,
had PICNIC at SR's field around 4.
OMG.
they totally chose the WRONG TIMING-II WAS TOTALLY SUNBURNED DD:
majority of the humans in SR were holding up umbrellas in one hand=.=
that includes me,
which ii was lucky since ii had the intuition that ii needed to bring it today :D
our class boys played re-capture the flag,
some girls played captain's ball.
the rest of us, stayed behind on the mats and chatted.
hahas. exchanged numbers,
chatchatchat lorhhs.
chat till 6 ii think.

aniwaes,
my house, AQUILA, was SECOND in place :D
CETUS was third, and PEGASUS was first^^
ORION was fourth [wanted it to be first/second :(] and DRACO was fifth.
after that, we did college dance,
DAMN HILARIOUS ;D
its lyk everyone so high :DD

thenns went to kovan with fungyee and yinyin.
chatted till 8.
hahas.
home-d after that :D

05'02'10-FRIDAY.
7TH DAY OF ORIENTATION.
school-d at 8plus.
almost late-ii woke up late :l
had a DAMN LONG TALK by the teachers/principal=.=

had a TEST too T.T
its a GP DIAGONISTIC TEST.
die le.
super funny too,
&& we chatted too Xl
ii mean the first half an hour never la.
everybody concentrate.
then after that chat le :l
then the stupid plus funny part xD
cause' ii WAS and AM bored, so ii started to count the number of words ii wrote.
ii mean ii KNOW dont need count larhhs,
ii just wanted to know how much ii wrote since the say for normal GP is 500+.
then, got 1 female teacher came to me, tell me say no need count.
iim lyk 'orhhs'.
then she walk away, ii started to count again.
LOLS. ii WAS bored-.-
then ziyun nugded me.
the teacher came to me again.
then she tell me AGAIN, dont need count.
iim lyk ii just want to count! but didnt say larhhs=.=
she expect me to stop, so ii did.
then she announce to the whole LT[with other classes] dont need to count.
then eveybody laugh Xl
its lyk those sitting near me, can hear until what she say de all laugh larhhs.
ii mean ii JUST WANT TO COUNT.
so, after all that laughing, including myself, ii went on counting.
but this time, ii COUNT MENTALLY.
cause' ii was using a pen to count the past 2 times.
hahas.

okokays.
after that ended paper at 1.11pm.
bought an econ lecture book, headed to compass to do something,
back to SR, went for guzheng straight.

was around 3..
cause' elvira got the key from ms.neo :D
learnt a new song,
there's a part where it is damn tough :l
cause' ii was and am able to play the song itself,
with the first addition of an extra part,
but not the second addition-.-
[okays. uue wont understand unless you were there]
aniwaes,
home-d around 7pm.

SUNBURN!!! DDDDDDDDD:

2010-02-04T22:24:00.005+08:00

Got SUNBURN TODAY!!! :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
cause' of the picnic at the field-.-

aniwaes,
tomo end early!!
end around 1230plus^^
gonna have mass lunch together :D

butbut,
iim super tired now, post tomo.

GUZHENG :"D

2010-02-03T20:27:00.004+08:00

as my title suggests,
iim no longer in the "Dancing industry" le.
iim now joining guzheng!!❤
its a done deal,
since ii bought the 'fingernails' and tape le^^
its lyk sooo fun.

aniwaes,
5TH DAY OF ORIENTATION.
amazing race.
funny!!!
super fun too.
my math is lyk really bad somehow :l
had some asthetic work again.
was released a LITTLE earlier today.
around 4plus.

CCA starts at 430pm...
went for the guzheng trial and ii must say, ii dont regret not going for the dance trial at all^^
it lyk, once ii went in the room,
suddenly just felt lyk ii SHOULD join guzheng and its gonna be fun.
&& it's true!!
my intuition is accurate :DDDDDD
was supposed to go for the shooting trial at 540,
but stayed on to play the guzheng.
its lyk so funnnnnnn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
learnt 4 'songs' :D
ii hope to buy a guzheng for myself thou^^

ii'm just ME.

2010-02-02T21:59:00.003+08:00

it's 10PM!!
ii should really start to LEARN how to sleep early for school.
which CCA should ii join??

cause' iim all ii am.
cause' iim all ii can be.
cause' thats just me.

it's taboo to think about it.
just thinking,
it hurts.
it engulfs me and overwhelms me.
ii can breakdown even just by thinking.
dont make it come true.
even typing it out hurts.
nothing is to happen.
there should be no hole,
no hole till mine exists.