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Been long since I posted..

Stressful period right now~~

7Days to Preliminary Examinations;

68Days to Pre-A’s;

95Days to A’s.

The deadline is getting near by the second, closer & closer.

& as time passes, the more I find myself unable to cope.

Yes, its stressful.

But not in the way everyone expects me to be stressed in.

I’m confused, helpless.

I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore.

I can’t see my goal anymore.

I can’t find my motivation anymore.

All I think is “Why? So? Then?”.

& it never ends, no matter what I do, what I think.

I’m starting to lose my way.

A’s are nearing & im totally not prepared.

Prelims is in one week’s time but I’ve yet to revise.

My results are like shit & im not doing anything about it.

Im demoralised & I really want to just…

Just stop & quit.

It’s just so painful to push myself forward again & again without any reason.

It’s meaningless.

I know time passed & Life gone cannot be reversed.

But right now, im not forwarding either.

Presently, im lost.

Where’s the light at the end of every tunnel?

Its near the end of the road now.

& its also the period that i want to give up right now.

HYSTERICAL LAUGHTER.

Hello again! [this next post was sooner than expected]

Had my Physics A’level SPA today/Yesterday.

Ain’t allowed to reveal the contents so yeah.

After that me and mich went to AMK to buy Koi!!! :DDDD

Bought 8Cups-.-

6Large 2Medium. LOL.

Green Milk Tea w Grass jelly & Pearl; Large; 50% Sugar

Milk Tea w Grass jelly; 4Large-(Two 25%)(One 50%)(One 100% w Pearl)

Pearl Milk Tea; 2Medium & 1Large-(50%)

Randomness. Hahas.

Then we had econs tutorial & for me, CSE as well.

Was quite short thou. I did study^^

But, wasn’t efficient I guess?

Evening-Night was HILARIOUS.

I cried laughing. Seriously.

Anyways, shall sleep soon. SOON.

Still charging my phone thou..

I just want some time to view the world.
To view the world i actually live in;
To take a glance at everything around me;
rather than rushing through and missing it all.

10MAY-FIRST POST OF 2011

Been Ages since I posted.

Like 5months and 5days? Hahas(:

Anyways, mini update about me currently.

Pure Randomness.

Having my MYEs in 3days time.

Tomo’s my Physics SPA thou^^. Quite okay with this bah.

But MYE is a bit tough? L

A lot of topics tested, I can’t put everything into my head.

Worse of all, I’m not studying.

When I say I never study, I REALLY NEVER study.

And it sucks to know that myself and not do anything?

I’m losing my focus now. Like, I don’t know why I’m studying so hard for.

Why?

Anyway, read through my trip to Taiwan [previous post] just.

I miss the whole experience! L

It was fabulous and I loved it(:

Something I will never forget J

Gonna sleep soon I guess?

2:39AM liao. Hahas.

I❤TAIWAN

I❤TAIWAN!!!

IT WAS SUPERBLY FUN!!

Day 1:

nothing much?

just travelled from Sing to HK to TW then bullet train to Tainan.

the bullet train DAMN NICE lahh!! spaceous and comfy(:

Reached the Cambridge hotel,

beds were QUEEN SIZE :D

had reflections at the hotel.

Day2:

Breakfast at hotel,

❤EGGs. hahas.

Travelled to Chang Jung High School,

performed--did quite well, only a few minor mistakes.

Then went to Old Folks Home,

saddening but lovely people there((:

Lunched, the vege there like got wasabi lahh. LOL

Went to some Anping Treehouse, learn their history.

the guide v.funny, named Anthony.

He likes to say

"You eat Taiwan's rice, Drink Taiwan's water, Breathe Taiwan's air, when you grow up must be nice to Taiwan."

HAHAHAHA!! damn funny lahh. LOL

He repeated that 3 times^^

The history was quite boring thou :l

Dinner, then went to some drama troupe thing.

did some exercies.

IT. WAS, DAMN. FUN. ❤❤❤

Then Back to hotel, reflections~

Day 3:

Guitar and Band Performed today at Chang Jung High School.

Toured around the school, IT WAS FREAKING HUGE. seriously.

Then to Qimei Museum,

B-E-A-U-TIFUL!!!!

They have a level for animals,

The animals are dead then they stuffed it with I duno what,

Ta-da! In the museum it goes. LOL.

Of course, the animals died naturally-.-

Anyway,

After that, we went for the student exchange program thing.

Chorale and Band stayed at Chang Jung,

Only Guzheng and Guitar went to the University of Technology for our exchange prog.

SUPERBLY FUN!! SERIOUSLY!!!

The people so friendly lah! :DD

drank our first milk tea also.

not bad(:

Then we went to GaoXiong,

To visit the river of love and the film museum.

Nth much?

After this was our FIRST Taiwan night market :D

I didn’t buy much? Only 3 small items..

Back to hotel, reflections~

Day 4:

Checked out of the Cambridge Hotel,

Transferred to Taipei and to YMCA hotel.

But, change of plans, after lunch went for hike at Yangminshan alr.

I ALMOST DIED?

Okay, before this was absolutely fine(:

This was where I was the beloved 小宝!

She attack me the first time I saw her lahh!

Lick my jeans-.-

SHE’S A CUTE DOGG!!! PICS ON FB!! SUPER CUTE!!!

Okay, fun part almost over.

Climbed a little up, then saw a water fountain. Quite nice(:

Climbed up more,

GOSH, I’M AFRAID OF HEIGHTS O.K.

Almost died, but I MANAGED TO CLIMB TO THE TOP!!!!

YAY-NESS!!

But I died there.

No more energy le. LOL.

Fainting state~~~

Everybody SUPER NICE! All came to ask me if I want sweets, water..

Then still use files to blow me.

Touched(:

Climbed down, WORSE.

Cause now can see the height CLEARLY, I FREAKED OUT.

Not really thou, I was super nervous then my hands in fist throughout everything. :l

Cried midway :X too scared le :l

Managed to get down, fainting spells got worse cause too scared. LOL.

Got onto the bus, think I blacked out at one point?

Cause my friends couldn’t wake me then I never hear anything then suddenly got very faint sounds of my name then I wake up.

LOL. Curious.

Anyway, after that went to DanShui for shopping, 1hour.

Didn’t do much?

Cause not feeling well plus there got nth much to buy.

Back to hotel, reflections.

Oh,

I cried during reflections :l

EMBRASSING!

Cause I wanted to thank everyone.

I prepared myself since I got on the bus after the climb lahh!

Then broke down in the end.

THEY WERE SO NICE ;)

Day 5:

Went to the Taipei University of the Arts.

WOW. Super big and nice(:

Lovely! :DD

Lunched, then on to amazing race.

It was fun, absolutely.

But I was feeling unwell? Cause of ytd maybe.

But I was stubborn, didn’t really want to drag the team so kept quiet and pushed on.

Luckily I didn’t faint or anything.

Only when I reach the final destination,

Suddenly my dizziness got worse.

Maybe cause I not forcing myself le?

But it was much better than ytd’s bah.

Went for a performance at Xi Men Ting, it was robot guitars with dancers.

Didn’t really catch much?

Was too dizzy le.

But I tried not to sleep cause I think it was rude. LOL.

Like I was a dancer myself, so I wouldn’t like others to sleep, so I never sleep lorh.

Anyways, back to hotel, reflections.

Day 6:

National Palace Musuem was the first location.

The artifacts were super nice(:

But the guide cancelled the tour half-way.

He said cause he saw that we were very tired then stop.

I thought he finished lahh.

I did like the tour L

Anyway, after that we had lunch and transferred to Jiufen.

Went for shopping at jiufen, 1.5Hours.

I bought 6 packeds of plums and 2rings(:

I DISLIKE, GREATLY DISLIKE THE PLUM STORE UNCLE. ARGH.

Moving on,

Went to SHILIN NIGHT MARKET!!! (3hours) FINALLY!!

MUHAHAHAHA!

Went on a shopping spree,

Bought tons of clothes and some souvenirs.

Haha! All my friends say I pro cause shop so fast.

Cause I shop for 2hours only, ate for 30mins then slack for 30mins.

LOL.

Anyway, back to hotel and reflections. We sang some songs too(:

Day 7:

Transit at Hongkong,

Back to Singapore((: