I need to do something.
anything.
it kills mii to be this bored.
somehow I cant stop my brain too.
I cant possibly get a job-JC
I cant sleep al day long-as much as I WANT to, my parents dont.
I'm not getting out of the house for outings-too far/midnight?
I need to do something.
I dont want any memories to come flashing back.
it hurts.. sometimes..
I dont want to think back.
memories are painful...
I've decided to change once JC starts,
be a mugger from the BEGINNING.
cause' I dont want any painful memories.
I'm gonna mug through my WHOLE JC life[if possible],
and try to be a loner.
cause' I'm a timid person[in a way],
I dont want to keep getting hurt.
I dont want to get more scars.
I dont want to be used.
I dont want to be a TOOL.