bought lappy ytd.
acer.
&& seriously;
stop askin why ii bought this instead of vaio.
ii bought for quality;
nt looks=.=
its cheaper too!
for better quality!
[seem to be promoting..?]
aniwaes;
work tomo!...
memories;
locked in.
etched to my mind;
ii can nv bear to erase it.
cuz;
ii can nv bear to hate you.
ii can nv bear to forget you.
lyk a foolish child;
ii hid the scars underneath a pile of items.
hoping,
that no one would find it,
that ii would be safe.
yet,
something would always jot the memories.
and it would lift all the items hidin the scars.
that would bring me back my pain.
but,
as foolish as a child can be,
a child is able to forget these memories.
ii am a foolish teen;
foolish enough to let myself get hurt;
but nv shudd uue get hurt.
ii am able to feel a person's aura,
mayb nt v.accurately;
but almost.
sadness, happiness fm within, sorrow, pain.
ii am always there with a shoulder for ppl to cry on.
to tell mii ure pain;
& hope that ii understand.
ii do.
ii cant say fully;
cuzz ii was once told no one can understand another person's pain FULLY.
& ii agree.
but.
who understands me?
even a tiny bit?
no.
iim an excellent actress.
ii hide my pain & sorrow well.
express happiness to the fullest.
but;
do any of uue guys even noe,
why do ii lyk to sit in a bus; starin through the window; speechless?
& alone?
no.
none of uue noes.
dun tell mii uue do,
cuzz when iim in pain;
no one was there.
a front ii put on;
a front uue believe.
ii can never let my mask fall off;
unless alone.
cause' none of uue have seen mii cry.
unless 2yrs ago.
noe why?
cuzz only i can stop thyself from crying.
its not something lyk mentality or self advice.
its just;
no one is or was able to console me;
cuzz no one understood.
cuzz ii've been trained;
to build a void high & deep enough to hide my pain.
they may overflow,
thats when ii breakdown.
but then;
ii can stop thyself fm crying in 10mins.
dun say it takes long;
cuzz uue dont know how deep my scars are.
cuzz uue dont know jus how much ii've been through.
