5 more days.

forgot to post this:

FRIDAY; 29'01'10.
after the orientation, which ended around 4plus5,
RUSHED back home.
but, ii cant rush the bus,
waited till 5 then did 119 come.
reach-d home around 510pm,
bath-d, packed.
finish around 540plus.
decided to take MRT cause' bus comfirm v.late de.
as ii was waiting to take bus to the interchange, [since it SHOULD be faster,]
the opposite side de 119 come le.
wth!!?
to compass=.=
stupid bus.
aniwaes,
reach-d compass around 6, after that left for raffles le.
[with liwen and belle]
wanted to eat ice-cream at raffles, but the ice-cream man unhygenic and the one we always buy from is not there :l

after that took some piics,
went into victoria concert hall le.
watch-d till the 3act,
the three of us left le.
cause', ii have yet to eat ANYHTING.
breakfast, lunch nor dinner.
lol.
mrt-d to kovan,
had macs since 9plus le. wanted ljs thou T.T
chatted till around 11^^
home-d :D




SATURDAY; 30'01'10
ii feel guilty.
did not went for breakfast with family today :l
cause' ytd slept at 2plus3...
so super tired, slept in instead :l
guilty~
aniwaes,
woke around 2plus,
around 3plus4 went to nvss.
to get testimonal && cca records.
ii CABBED there.
to find-no teachers in.
SIIANS!
aniwaes,
bus-d to compass,
stayed at library longlong,
found 2books- "Taken" & "Impossile".
couldnt find "Thanks for the Memories" D:
home-d around 6...





TODAY.
nth much?
just that felt lyk fainting just now?
decided to sleep in early today.
since tomo got school....
but think it will be around 11..
needa wear pe attire tomo.
iim still hesitating.
should ii wear my house-t/pe top with skirt/pe shorts.
my friend say shorts lyk informal, wear skirt w shorts underneath..
but its lyk a hassle?
duno larhhs D:

MASKS;

SECOND day of ORIENTATION.
obviously more fun then ytd,
since ii made new friends :D
aniwaes,
love-d a particular news-------wireless internet avaliable.
:DDDDD
always thought SR dont have thou xD
had CCA talks,
iim still hesitating:
join student council or dance or shooting or guzheng?
ii dont want the election and rally for student council.
but ii want to try the experiences.
seems fun^^
it mayWILL be helpful to my future career too :D
shall consider &&,
gonna sleep SOON,
since tomo having breakfast with family..

ii dont know what is what anymore.

ii cant judge, ii've yet to hear both sides.

but iim TIRED.

tiredtiredtiredtiredtired.

ii've say that manymanyMANY times le.

but still,

it's really siian to ear these things,

ii WANT to be a neutral party.

ii WANT us to be lyk before.

ii WANT us to be the best of friends, sisters.

but apparently,

iim the only one who wants these stuffs.

SUB. COMBINATION.

Just chose my subject combinations.

• China Studies in English [H1]
  Mathematics [H2]
  Physics [H2]
  Economics [H2]

• China Studies in English [H1]
  Mathematics [H2]
  Chemistry [H2]
  Economics [H2]

• Mathematics [H2]
  Physics [H2]
  Economics [H2]
  Chemistry [H1]

hahas.
iim actually gonna study china.
dont know if can make it not :l
am gonna study china cause' it's on par with US....
whatever :D

SEVEN DAYS ORIENTATION!!

AHHHHH!!!
SEVEN DAYS.
SEVEN!!!
ii can go bonkers larhhs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they talktalktalk lyk psycho mii to sleep lyk that=.=
its lyk the main point talks are short, so okays.
then the other stuffs is lyk wth?
they can talk for 1hour plus ii sit until my butt pain=.=
nearly fell asleep manymanymany times :l
oya,
played ice-breakers before the boring old talks,
nothing much? quite funny thou.
dont think this year my class will have people ii know inside :(((
aniwaes;
iim gonna TRY to last for the SEVEN days.
LUCKILY; got sat and sun in between to rest.
ii'd RATHER start SCHOOL NOW; then orientation in JC.
GAHHHHHH DDDDD:

SCHOOL STARTS! DDDD:

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:
TOMORROW school starts le!!!!!
need choose subject combi, buy clothes, ice-breaking?, talktalktalk.
OMG.
ii woke at 8AM today.
slept at 3plusAM today.
why did ii wake SO EARLY?
cause' ii read the message send by moe.
shock. trauma. wide awake.
ii stare longlong at the date la!
ii see and see and see and compare today's date.
then ii shock dao iim wide awake.
FIRST.
serious.
:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
ii wanted school to start after CNY! D;
believe next week start le.
cause ii think by fri need to school the sub. combi....
then mon can start school?
no idea.
still hope in vain that school can start after CNY :((((((

GAHHHHHHH!

OMG.
ii got RASHES!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHH!
invaded my left arm larhhs!
its lyk SO SUDDEN?!
last night still fine de,
[mayb i scratched it when i was sleeping?]
then wake up le my whole left arm is lyk SWOLLEN and ITCHY!?
its even hard to type now T.T
ii AM kinda disappointed thou.
was kinda looking forward to today's prawning.......
now,
ALL RUINED.
SIIANS.
SUPER SIIANS.
why do this kind of BAD AND UNLUCKY stuffs occur on me EVERYTIME!!?

22/23'01'10

Okays.
gonna post abt the past two days :D

22'01'10-Friday.
went to belle's house for steamboat dinner.
fun and hilarious of course.
hmmmm, not much to say?
forgot most of it le-.-

23'01'10-Saturday.
met, by coincidence, with mel at compass.
went to belle's house together.
reach-d around 1030
orlena arrived shortly after we reached belle's house.
helped to make sandwiches.
at abt 1130 went out le.
met huiling then bus[forgot what bus] to bedok to take 401 and meet with natalie and qiulin.
thou, cabbed down to East Coast Park instead cause' the first bus of 401 is at 2pm.
reached ECP around 1315.
play-d games and kite, hilarious.
thenn belle's pri school mates came,
mii and mel went to play with water.
hahas.
chatted a long time,
super fun and super hilarious.
especially when ii tried to push her into the water.
LOL.
aniwaes,
after that jiahui't arrived.
all 3 of us fly kite!
not very successful thou...
the damn kite keep getting stucked onto treessssssssssss.
then played sand...
[childish, ii know. but its fun! ><]
belle's present from jiahui't was also done too :D
she became super hyper after recieving the present^^
took TONS of photos after that.
HAHAS!
jump shots, mainly.
[my feet hurts!]
dinner at Jalan Kayu.
ii must say,
the servicing there SUCKS.
reach-d there and got our seats around 9plus.
the table was filled with plates,
NO cleaner/helper.
requested multiple times for them to clean the table, no response.
waited for a LONG time before table was cleared.
then,
wait AGAIN for menu.
after that,
wait AGAIN for food.
WTH?
the food arrived around 10plus larhhs!
its lyk we waited for 1 hour for the food.
somemore we have to keep telling them what other food/drink was missing before they served it.
assholes.
thou, wasnt hungry but was pissed for their serivce larhhs-.-
aniwaes,
cabbed home after dinner-1040plus?
reached home around 11plus.
hahas.



gonna go prawning with them tomo.
iim not really sure ii can or not,
but MOST PROBABLY, yes.
&&,
ii just created a fb account.
why?
jus simply for the sake of getting the photos.
all the photos.
lOl.
Oya!
ii got sunburns from ytd.
god.
my shoulder HURTS!
my face is red-.-
hope it will go off soon bahhs?
:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNABELLE'LZL!!!!!
your long awaited day has finally arrived larhhs.
hahas :D
aniwaes;
老了啦! 不要太幼稚了okays? :D
&&,
stay in contact always❤

I'M EVIL, I KNOW.

woke at 530pm today.
god.
slept at 4+am thou..
aniwaes;
NEED to wake by 3/4pm tomo...
cause' need to go belle's steamboat party at 6+pm..[i'm reaching at 5+ thou]
then worse of all,
23 sat, NEED to be awake by 830am latest.
cause need to be at belle's house by 10am for her birthday bash.
ARGHH.
cant sleep=.=
but,
still got a few more hours till her birthday.
hahas.

MEMORIES.. I..

I need to do something.
anything.
it kills mii to be this bored.
somehow I cant stop my brain too.
I cant possibly get a job-JC
I cant sleep al day long-as much as I WANT to, my parents dont.
I'm not getting out of the house for outings-too far/midnight?
I need to do something.
I dont want any memories to come flashing back.
it hurts.. sometimes..
I dont want to think back.
memories are painful...
I've decided to change once JC starts,
be a mugger from the BEGINNING.
cause' I dont want any painful memories.
I'm gonna mug through my WHOLE JC life[if possible],
and try to be a loner.
cause' I'm a timid person[in a way],
I dont want to keep getting hurt.
I dont want to get more scars.
I dont want to be used.
I dont want to be a TOOL.

HARSH REALITY.

life, is tough.
ii've known that ever since ii came to understand humans.
but ii dont get it.
why do humans put on a fake smile?
why?
ure acting was so real,
ii fell for it.
ii thought uue really was fine with what ii chose.
but then,
why talk behind my back?
ii heard uue loud and clear.
why?
to be honest,
iim not feeling any pain right now.
its lyk iim dried up.
ii dont wanna do anything le.
the pain and scars uue gave me,
it will never be erased.
it cant.
it jus accumulates with other things.
iim really dried up.
ii jus wanna rot.
ii dont wanna be a brave, smiley girl anymore.
a front ii put,
a front everyone believes.
iim a doctor in a counselor.
ii can help others, ii cant help myself if iim sick.
and ii cant find anyone as dumb as me,
to be in the same profession.
ii cant seem to be healed at all.
all ii can do is temporary numb the pain.
ii explode, then immediately numb it.
but before it takes effect,
ii can feel the wound.
my heart,
is bleeding.

SRJC

firstly,
ii MUST type this:

SORRY MELIZSA!!!!!!!!

pangsei-d her ytd=.=
cause' ii forgot ii had plans for outing lerhhs.
thenns never pei mel to tp.
SORRY~ T.T

Okays.
submitted my 12 choices ytd/today[midnight] lerhhs.
first was SRJC.
hahas!!
jus thought there de humans more friendly.
thou, ii dont like SR cause they every year join 1 10km run.
iim soooooooooo gonna take mcs on that day.
diedie must take.
should be able to get in bahhs?
considering my score.. :l
polypolypoly :l
byebyes-psycology.
T.T

aniwaes,
slept at 6am in the morning.
chatted on phone with a bunch of siiao kias.
LOLS!
almost dozed off larhhs..
thenn they shout in the phone.
humph.
thou,
funny conversation.
:D

ACROPHOBIA.

Okays.
this post is for a certain dumbass person.
READ IT:
'Acrophobia can be dangerous, as sufferers can experience a panic attack in a high place and become too agitated to get themselves down safely.'
[source from wikipedia]
GET IT?!
ii dont wanna risk myself by going on that stupid wheel. :l
IIM AFRIAD OF HEIGHTS.
please stop doing insane stuffs.
as for the tickets, DONATE :D
be nice once in a while.
see!
iim helping uue do charity :D

SURPRISES SURPRISES SURPRISES.

results out, 11 became one of my fav. nums.
ELATED.
hahas.
ii CANT believe iim top 15 of express larhhs!! [iim 11]
my totally unglam pic was up=.=
awkward when ii went up to stage to shake hands w mr.lim.
weird thou.
happy :D
both my maths is A1!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHH! YAY!!
ii've been telling some of my close friends[when ii talk to them],
both my maths A1.
ahahs.
didnt expect my C.Humanities to get A2.
shocking.
so ii hit 12 raw-L1R5.
9 raw-L1R4.
now ii can get into tp's psycology!!!!!!!!!
AHHHH!.
but jc..............
thou, like jas said,
this is a happy problem :D

MATHS.

BOOKSBOOKSOOKS.
MATHMATHMATHS.

CAUSE' THATS' JUST ME.

Annoying annoying annoying.
Annoyed annoyed annoyed.
argh.



currently bored && MISSING STUDYING plus school.
amazingly, ii WANT to study.
more accurately, ii want to do assessments.
just lyk before the o's.
iim a weirdo. ii know.


am bored.
play-d tarot last nightaround midnight++
&& slept at 5plus6am
woke super early today [for me]-11plus12pm.

tomo getting results.
mayb ii'll cry tomo.
no idea.
worse case scenario: ii sleep through the whole thing tomo.

aniwaes;
ii find my specs irritating.
surprisingly.
cause' ii've been wearing contacts for abt a week?
thenn change back to specs le-weird.
the frames are surprisingly blocking my vision?
contacts better bahhs?

LIFE'S A BORE.

Okays.
does anyone agree with mii that "we live to die"?
hmmmm.
just a thought thou.
aniwaes;
went to collect my specs lerhhs.
bought some night clothes as well.
iim still sleepy.
but ii woke at 4++pm today.
hmmmm.
ii seriously dont get why my parents think that food will wake mii up.
iim a pig cause' ii sleep too much.
not cause' of eating habits.
they just keep annoying mii by saying "ehhs, v.nice lehhs. ure fav lehhs."[mandarin]
thenns the one ii find MOST ANNOYING is they try to wake mii up.
ii SERIOUSLY just wanna sleep=.=
they dont seem to get this point.
my mum says it bad for my health,
ii get she's worried.
burt seriously, my health was never in a good shape before.
does it make a difference?
ii dont really care if ii get old cause' ii sleep in the day but play in the night.
&& my sleeping days are about to be over.
damn.
jus wish that ii can live on nothing.
cause' thenn ii wont need nothing.
life's a bore.
it's just the beginning of torture && pain.
it accumulates and leads to death.
that is all.

WHAT WILL BE, WILL BE

Okays.
calm down le.
hahas><
just terrified of getting my results.
burt;
ii seriously wanna noe how ii fare right now.
even directly after my last o paper.
iim terrified, burt iim looking forward to my results.
cause' ii've done what ii can,
and ii hope ii get what ii want.
if ii do score badly, ii'll just go poly.
just felt a wave of disappointment just by thinking of it :l
if ii do score well &/ at my expectations,
ii'll go JC mayb? ii'll go JC.
cause' if ii do score well-JC to UNI to MASTERS to JOB.
if ii dont-POLY to UNI to MASTERS to JOB or POLY to JOB
my destination is still the same,
just how long ii'll take.
WHATS' DONE, IS DONE.

11JAN; MONDAY!!!!!

GAHHH!!
just went the JAE web page;
found out that results are out on 11JANUARY-THIS MONDAY!!
WOAHS.
stressed stressed stressed.
arhhs!!
omg.
serious tramua here.
4 more days to results, to happiness or sadness.
&& to trouble over JC or POLY.

aniwaes;
feeling sickish now.
[mayb cause of the shock-11jan!!?]
arghs.
shall collect my specs some other time thenn~
GAHH!
RESULTS!
STRESSED STRESSED STRESSED!

NOTHING LEADS TO NOTHING.

Okays.
just got home fm outing.
huiling joined mii and belle for lunch too :D
had, of course, thai express.
[thats the whole point of mii going out.]
aniwaes;
ordered tomyum fish;
but they gave all seafood de.
thou;
they did change for us^^
thenns went to ask for knitting de price,
as in how much does a yarn of wool costs.
its apparently $8 per ball at least.
same goes with the needles.
super ex; didnt expect it to be that ex.
decided to consider, went to popular.
belle and huiling searched for assesment books.
ii became a book consultant.
any book they choose ask mii see good or not.
hahas.
later ii give wrong info :l
ii bought my schedule contents for 2010 lerhhs.
finally~
burt they month part for my schedule book is lyk 2009 de?
iim lazy to re-write all the birthdays && everything,
burt even if ii wanted, ii couldnt find the same one that is of 2010.
hmmm.
decided not to learn knitting as yet thou.
o, didnt collect pay as well, && iim not going for BBQ-jas has high fever.
slacking at home..
OHHHH!
ii bought chips at kovan fm cold storage.
thenns ii pay money le.
thenn ii walk off.
[see anything missing?]



ii didnt take the chips.
LOLS!
walk-d off lyk that larhhs.
lucky the cashier call mii-.-
hahas xD

SHOWS, LUNCH, PAY?, KNITTING, BBQ?

Okays.
woke up the EARLIEST since the 14 of November'09.
cause' had to work on 13Nov; woke earlier.
aniwaes;
woke at 8.48AM.
&& now its 9.45AM.
oya;
my schedule for the day is lyk my heading?
iim try to SQUEEZE it all in a day :l
not very successful thou.
cause' knitting seems to clash with bbq.
but; ii still have no idea am ii gonna go the class chalet de bbq.
no idea go what time too..
but;
if by the time ii finish lunch && collect pay le,
still duno what time go;
iim gonna go knitting instead bahhs?
cause' learning to knit requires TIME.
&& today seems sooo.. short?

STRESSED STRESSED STRESSED

Okays.
currently stressing for my o's results && typing in a blur[without specs]
GAHHH!
shall change the topic a little.

YESTERDAY.
did nth?
cchatted with belle and jh on msn.
O!
jus remembered this:
annabelle wants to learn BALLET!
hahas!
[try imagining belle in a pink ballet top plus a pink tutu-freaking hilarious]
aniwaes;
went out with my mum after dinner.
hougang mall.
bought ingredients required for tonight's 'shabu shabu' <3333
bought clothes too^^ && a new wallet :D
Oya, gave my specs to the optical shop-something wrong.
aniwaes;
walk-d around the ntuc && home-d in a blur larhhs=.=
thursday thenns can get back specs T.T

TODAY.
hmmm.
slept earlier ytd, 2plus.
woke at 12.23; lunch-d [a few mouths. counted?]
thenns SLEPT BACK at 12.35pm.
hahas.
cause' my dad forcefully woke mii up.
so ii gort more tired.
officially woke at 4.38pm :x

aniwaes;
ii seriously wonder if tomo am ii gonna go for the class chalet.
was SUPPOSED to know what time can get in;
burt ii was not told larhhs=.=
&& ii DONT wanna ask again and again and again.
Jas couldnt find any info too.
so it turns out we are not going bahhs?
since no details-.-
lucky we haven pay thou :D

MOVIES IN 2010

Okays.
currently looking forward to certain months days of the year.
14th of FEBRUARY; CNY!
9th of JULY && 19th of NOVEMBER.
Twilight saga ECLIPSE && Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows :DDD
hahas.
mayb gonna watch Alice in Wonderland too, 5th of MARCH.
hmmm.
still far;
shall plan next time.
l0ls.
aniwaes;
didnt go knitting again.
cause' slept at 4+am.
&& woke at 7.41am.
couldnt sleep till 10plus.
woke just.
ii seriously wonder how am ii gonna cope with the semester when school reopens.
its lyk iim an owl?
awake at night burt sleeping in the day?
believe its gonna be freaking tough for mii to wake up early=.=
thou;
ii should fret for my results now.

FORGIVE IS DONE. FORGET?

12.12AM.
its a new year, as said in my previous post.
its a time to learn and play;
a time to choose "pay first then play or play first then pay".
its the best time to throw all the unhappiness away and start afresh.
sometimes,
ii wish life's mistakes could be undone.
just lyk pressing CTRL + Z on the com.
if so; the word 'regret' would never have existed.
hahas.
ii can forgive; for ii long have.
iim trying to forget.
a burden iive carried and tow-d with me for years;
iim throwing it down;
cause' its time for ME to start living for myself.
so,
another new year resolution of mine would be:
-start living life for myself; &&
-learn knitting!
hahas.
wanted to learn knitting since 2009 mid-year?
overslept ytd.
if not ii was intending to go kovan learn.
hymp.
see if can learn tomo^^
since my mum wans me to go buy some clothes :D

·2009, GONE WITH THE TIME·

ahahs.
its lyk 1 minute after my previous post.
its 12:00AM / 00:00AM now!
First Day of 2010 & First Minute of 2010!
[ii seem to be going mental.]
aniwaes;
gonna keep this post shortshortshort.
WISHING ALL EARTHLINGS & HUMANS A PEACEFUL NEW YEAR :D