life, is tough.
ii've known that ever since ii came to understand humans.
but ii dont get it.
why do humans put on a fake smile?
why?
ure acting was so real,
ii fell for it.
ii thought uue really was fine with what ii chose.
but then,
why talk behind my back?
ii heard uue loud and clear.
why?
to be honest,
iim not feeling any pain right now.
its lyk iim dried up.
ii dont wanna do anything le.
the pain and scars uue gave me,
it will never be erased.
it cant.
it jus accumulates with other things.
iim really dried up.
ii jus wanna rot.
ii dont wanna be a brave, smiley girl anymore.
a front ii put,
a front everyone believes.
iim a doctor in a counselor.
ii can help others, ii cant help myself if iim sick.
and ii cant find anyone as dumb as me,
to be in the same profession.
ii cant seem to be healed at all.
all ii can do is temporary numb the pain.
ii explode, then immediately numb it.
but before it takes effect,
ii can feel the wound.
my heart,
is bleeding.