Be yourself day((:

today ishh be yourself day((:
hahas..
saw mani ppl wearin home clothes..
burt;
it was said that those who wear slippers will be fined.
0.o
duno larhhs..
lyk nv fine or whats..

aniwaes;
had 3 test today((:
first was Physics.
ii believe ii CAN pass(((:
thenn had english;
Exposition test.
ehhs;
mayb a 15?
[since out of 30.]
nxt upp was emaths.
was okay larhhs..
if pass;
by a few markks lorhhs..
if fail;
oso by a few markks..
the diff. shudd nort be too drastic larhhs((:
hopp so :DDD
[[iim in a happie mood larhhs><]]

home-d after emaths test..
saw t.jiahui..
she's on her way to hougang mall..
thenns she peii mii take 119(((:
iil0veJiahui't!!!
hahas..
ii nort lesbian arhhs((:
aniwaes;
crapp loads;
it was mii actually..
hahas((:
reached home around 4plus..
phone-d && slept(:
&& now iim postin! :P

iim bring home my books;
ii gort my timetable planned.
hopp ii can fulfill what ii had planned..

*iim jus a little gal;
with a glimmer of hope*

Reflections

when a gal smiles;
it either means that she is happie;
or
she's jus tryin to cover the tears
swellin upp in her eyes.

When a gal crys;
she either elated;
or
she's complicated.

others see uue as how uue present ureself.
yet;
those who are close to uue;
see uue for ure character.
burt;
onli an object shows uue who uue are.
shows uue how impressive uue look.
that; onli a mirror can do.
a mirror cant speak;
nor talk or say.
this is why its the perfect mechanism.
it reflects ure image;
enables uue to match.
a mirror is a form of reflection;
a reflection of thyself.

iim dead lerhhs..

siians.
why mus tis happen?
iim alr as stressed as it is;
mus uue make it worse?
ii told uue;
iim very sickish in august.
ii duno why.
uue told bro that;
ure worried;
ii keep on wan pon school.
ii dun wan attend lessons.
ii gort prob at school.
ii gort prob with friends.
wth?
iim perfectly FINE with my school;
my teachers; my friends; my class.
ii dun hate school.
its jus that;
iim sick && tired of failing liiaos.
ii tried.
burt;
ii nv seem to be able to pass at all.
yet;
instead of giving mii ure support;
uue went to all the trouble;
call my cher..
to mii;
iil0ve my school.
MORE than iil0ve my home.
to mii;
home;
its jus a place for mii to sleep in.
school;
ii get to play && laugh && hab fun.
iim tired lerhhs..
ii sleep longer;
uue tell bro ii dun wan attend school.
ii go out later[cuzz of slp]
uue tell bro ii wan pon lessons.
fine.
ii shall go out of the house at 6am.
ii will wake upp at 5am.
uue wan earlier oso can derhhs.
okays?
happie marhhs?
or uue wan mii stay out FOREVER?
ii dun mind;
since home;
iits NORT associated with mii liiaos.

你说你担心我.
真的吗?
真是难已置信.
在你眼里;
我是个没用的人.
就算我考试及格;
你何尝称赞过我?
你只会骂我;
说我;
从来没有想过我有多努力.
我以尽力了.
可你却永远都不满意.
算了.
你以后都不要在管我了.

wednesday; 27.08.08

school-ed at home today..
was nort feelin well.
[was supposed to be fake;
burt really vomited when ii reach home=.=]
skipped my session with da doc;
iim lazy to write an mc too.
bought my emaths tbk liiaos..
went to cp waited until 11am;
out of stock.
then took 119 to kovan;
found it.
home-d.
studies graphs;
hopp ii pass.

oyas;
tomo onli gort phy emaths && eng test.

iim mood-less.

a fake smile.

its hard..
to keep smilin all day;
all the time..
the stress;
the pressure;
iim shoulderin all tis by myself..
iim tired;
keepin all within mii;
its hard to keep smilin..
its hard to fake a smile all day;
when iim not..
tears swell up my eyes;
ii look up.
when it trickles down my cheek;
ii'l jus smile.
its painful.
who understands?
to others;
iim jus a optimistic;
happie go lucky gal..
&& when ii cry;
its always hidden..

ii jus wanna close my eyes
&& nv let them open again..
cuzz ii noe;
when ii open my eyes;
tears jus trickle down my cheeks uncontrollably.

我真的的累了.
真的好累好累..
当我哭时;
谁会陪我;
安慰我?
自己一个人承受这些压力;
我快受不了了..
我真的好想哭好想哭..
可是;
却又不能..
脸上带着笑容;
心里却在哭..
我好想把一切的不愉快
都哭出来..

iim jus a step away
from breakin down totally.
when it happens;
ii'll totally give up on my studies..

iim tired

school-ed;
things aint going well..
seems that;
ii shuddnt study at all..
when ii didnt pay attention in class;
&& didnt revise/study at home;
ii failed by a few marks.
now iim more attentive in lessons;
studied/revised;
ii fail even more badly.
why?

ii l0ve chemistry.
yet;
it seems to be that;
iil nv pass.
ii tried.
ii studied.
ii listened.
ii revised.
ii worked.
yet;
the results ii get;
its failure.
its hard..
doin it all by myself..

wanted to go home after school..
burt met mel && erika && orle at busstop..
so went to eat with them((:
ate thai express..
iil0ve the tomyum fish soup!!!
hahas..
shopped around;
went to cold storage..
bought sweets..
1pkt nia..
cuzz lazy bring home><
aniwaes;
wanted to go giant && check out sumthing..
burt trip was cancelled due to da time..
so home-d liiaos((:

mega test week

siians!!
tis week suxx man..
actually its onli tue && thur larhhs..

aniwaes;
tue habb chem && chi test..
hopp ii pass((:
cuzz ii did studied marhhs..
hahas..

thur gonna habb FIVE! test.
siians larhhs..
oyas;
its 'be yourself day' too..
the 5 test are:
1. English
2. Emaths
3. Physics
4. Elective Geography
5. Social Studies
iim dying!!! T.T

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Zilin.
MUHAHAHAHAHAS(((:
of course iim evil!!
ii dun habb a heart rmb??
:DDDDD

Jiahui.
yupps..
saw her today at tuition..
forgort to ask ms lee abt uue..
hahas((:
shall ask her nxt tuition :DDD

❤IKEA❤

hmmms;
elaborate on friday bahhs(((:
super duper funn :D

friday-22.08.08;
had school;
as per norm.
&&s,
THANKKS KUNLENG((:
hahas..
cuzz everytime friday after recess,
ii will pester him to change seats with jas><
hahas..
thankks arhhs((:
decided to go ikea after school;
mie idea; cuzz v.long nv go liaos.
went compass first..
waited for erika && orle..
ate meesua with mel && zilin[=
&&s never order 'Green Apple Ice' at compass cupwalker.
it sucks! seriously larhhs..
aniwaes;
reached ikea abt 3plus4? or later><
thenns went walkwalk after they arrived((:
we went ke-siao><
hahas!!
took tons of pics;
had lots of fun;
run && played XD
thenns went to have hotdog((:
settled our dinner at the cafe;
&&s we decided that during dinner time;
sdf will 'change' into another familie..
kinda complicated to explain><
nvms((:
home-d :PP

pics at ikea

PICTURES(((:
at IKEA

Mirror Fenzy><

'TZX Orle && CZH' plaster

err; drawin on her plaster?

lookin upp((:

Annabelle's Unglam pic><

the crazy trio><

Domo!!

TZX Orle ❤ CZH Mii && zilin((:

2pics of mii =]

opps-y; unglam posture of mel><

hmms; l00kin at what? {CWC}><

Emolishous; missin boiifriends><
Orle misses CZH;
Annabelle misses Chea Weichiat><

Da Handphone wallpaper((:

Unglam pic of orle><

L00k at the bruise!!

Dinner is served((:
[yumyum]

Sorta unglam pic of mel><

prezzies!!!

finally attended school..
hahas><
was fun though..
gort prezzies in da morning(((:
ii gorta moomoo && piglet!!!
yays!!!
still gort 1 more piggie..
&&s;
ii gort abt 3 of the dun what bottle..
all minitoon gib de..
when they buy present=.=

PS: THANKKS FOR BUYIN MII PREZZIE PEEPS(((:
SDF && MY BELOVED 3E1 :DD

aniwaes;
ii hate takin 119 at around 0640 larhhs..
today late..
then gort 1 stupid boiiboii keep starin at mii.
wth?
sec2 from our school de larhhs..
ii damn pissed..
then he keep squashin mii oso..
cuzz no space de..
then he EXTRA squeeze beside mii.
&& he loves to move larhhs..
no space le keep on push then stare..
nv see b4 girl mehhs??
or nv see b4 upper sec?
[though ii nv put nametag><]
asshole.
forget it!

schooled as per norm..
paid damn lots of attention in class..
mayb cuzz ii noe eoy is upp;
&& ii missed tons of lessons?
aniwaes;
its a good sign bahhs(((:
home-d with the prezzies;
err..
placed in a damn big bag?
hahas..

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Orle.小曦
hahas..
ii never keep mia-in..
cuzz ii ishh siickk marhhs><
hahas :P
&& tys for da prezzie((:

Melizsa.laomazi
tys!!
hahas;
today ii gort && finally attended school!!!
&& tys for present((:
:DD

Jiahui.budd
hahas..
went to ure blog && see lerhhs..
damn similar larhhs..
gortta same life T.T
aniwaes;
ure tuition at 'learnin habitat' arhhs?
if really then same!! :DDDD
l0vess && misses(((:

dad.. dad?

a special post.

found out;
deep in my heart;
ii treat uue nort with respect;
burt cuz iim terrified..

when ii was sec1;
my maths && science were damn right good.
did uue even notice?
ii've nv failed maths nor sci during sec1.
was there a praise?
chi, eng..
failed once or twice;
did ii shame uue?

sec2.
maths && science were good as well.
though nort as perfect as sec1;
ii nv scored less than border line pass.
that goes for music as well.
what uue tot of mii was that;
these sub gort what use?

sec3.
flunked almost of all my tests;
that was after midyr.
b4 mid-year;
ii did work hard.
ii did tried.
burt;
each time ii fail a test;
uue jus shouted.
uue scolded.
even if the test was diff;
ii passed;
uue would jus say;
borderline pass onli ma..
ii said alot of ppl fail;
kinda hard..
uue would reply;
then why uue nort top?
why score so low?

did uue ever care?
did uue even wanted to know how ii was?
ii wanted to go to 3e1..
why?
cuzz uue kept comparin mii && my bigbro.
he's smart, clever.
he has the brains.
ii dont.
went to 3e1;
cuzz uue said.
bio;
at least can become doc..
earn more money;
gort brighter future.
ii went.
everything was jus different there..
it was harder; tougher..
plus bio;
time was never enough..
did uue noe?
ii was always the first to wake;
last to sleep.
ii never had more than 8hrs of sleep.
mid-yr results;
gort Cs && Bs.
ii nv aced;
uue jus gave mii the look.
that stare.
what uue built in mii was never fatherly love.
it was terror.
it was being petrified of uue..
sumtimes ii wonder;
sumtimes ii hopp;
am ii even ure daughter?

whats the use of a father;
when uue despise havin a daughter lyk mii?

absent 3days

absent from school.
3days in a row.
first time lyk tat sia..
iim jus 'mood-less' to post.
aniwaes;
mum bought mii a mini piggie..
its in collaboration with my humongous piggie((:
pics upp nxt time..
gort a handphone strap as well..
siians;
super no mood..

iim depressed;
ii cried.
ii broke down.

jus fuck off
&& die.

'my day'

hahas..
damn high today;
as said in earlier post((:
hope can attend school tomo.
cuzz havin headache since ytd nite;
seems to be getting worse.
hmmms;
so tomo will be mie 'monday'?
hahas..
absent sooo long lerhhs..
mayb tomo move back to e1 classroom liiaos;
hoppes so :DDD

aniwaes;
happie purple valentines to all(((:
hahas..

phone jas;
just.
nxt week ishh a MEGA TEST WEEK.
siians><
missed tons of lessons && notes liiaos.
get well soon huishan..
hahas((:
hopp iim well && jumpin soon..
mayb;
jus mayb..
by nxt year ii shudd be able to run && jumpp..
cross-ed fingers Xl

home b'daeT.T

haishh;
siians!!
cooped at homeT.T

yays!!!
19AUGUST liiaos!!
mie b'dae(((:
hahas..
today ii damn super high ;D

woke up at 3-4plus am.
whys?
ppl call mii.
wish mii happie b'dae.
lyk so l0ls?
ii sleep halfway gort call..
hahas..
aniwaes;
ii woke up as usual
[by phone call again]
thenns went to bathe.
ii wanted to go school larhhs..
mum say NO.
T.T
hahas..
went to my room;
sms-d ppl && gort lots of wishes;
tys for those who remebered(((:
iloveyou peeps :DDD
hahas..
1908-the best day of da year ;D

hopp didnt miss much lessons..
later cant catch upp..
lucky amths ii onli miss 1period.
though aw teach vfast de><
ii go rest lerhhs..
buaixbuaix((:

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Melizsa.laomazi((:
l0ls!!
its GREAT to have mc..
burt nort on mie b'dae!! T.T
hahas..
l0vess && misses <3333

cant seem to go emo today.
a great sign for a great start((:

happie b'dae((:

HAPPIE B'DAE BERNICE!!! :DDDDD

happie b'dae to uue
happie b'dae to uue
happie b'dae to berber
happie b'dae to uue<3333

hopp uue habb a happie b'dae cele((:
&&s;
hopp ure wishes come true arhhs^^

stomach flu

wth?
iim damn sickish in august larhhs..
last week was gastric.
this week is stomach flu.
nxt week whats?
hospitalized arhhs??

aniwaes;
didnt attend school=.=
again.
yys?
as explain earlier;
stomach flu.
kana 2 days mc.
&&s;
tomo my b'dae ii sick.
SIIANS!
hate tis.
oyas;
kana flu && cough oso..
ANNABELLE!
ii gort mc to excuse for PE && dance lerhhs!!!
hahas!!! ><
l0ls..
suan her XD

slept through today;
ii still wanna sleep.
aniwaes;
annabelle'
ii anything larhhs..
burt see what time horhhr.
laobu dun wan mii latelate go home(((:
ii v.guai derhhs XD

running through my mind;
iim nort worth the wait.
&&;
iive deleted the memories.
it was an exciting && flawless plan.
nv tot ii'd find out.
tot ii would forgive.
burt;
ii've decided.
its the end of da show.

happie b'dae 1808

happie b'dae 大表姐[dabiaojie] :DDD

hahas;
dun think uue'll ever see think aniwaes><
l0ls((:

the story of the seedlin

the story.

the was a little seed;
a flower seed..
it was named sunny,
by 2 farmers; couples.
they took great care of sunny..
showerin lots of love && care..
if sunny was sick;
they would take so great care of it;
they wouldnt leave sunny until he was well.
they fed him fertilizers frequently;
makin sure he's growin healthy;
happily.
to sunny;
the farmers were lyk his mum && dad.
burt;
one day;
the farmers found that they had not enough money.
thus;
both of them decided to work out;
to earn money to take care of sunny.
sunny tot nth would change..
but;
he was left uncared.
the couple worked so hard;
they forgot to water sunny.
they forgot to fertilize him.
they forgot to take care of him.
they forgot about him.
they forgot he even existed.
sunny felt heartbroken.
no one wans him anymore..
soon;
sunny withered..
he withered even before his "lifespan" was up..
leaves started falling;
he started to bend;
flower pedals fell;
he turned brown..
the couple did not took notice.
'did they even care?
did they even love-d him?
if the hard work was for him;
yy is it that they dun care now?'
had his "mum && dad" deserted him?
who could solve his inquiries?
not long;
sunny died.
he fell straight onto the hard cold soil.
it was onli then;
they noticed.
tears dripped on sunny;
burt;
it was all too late..
sunny was hurt;
he died with regrets;
without happiness;
without smilin;
he died crying.

buckk upp

opps-y;
didnt post for so long><
aniwaes;

friday;
a usual day larhhs..
dun wan elaborate.

sat;
ilovinsat((:
hahas;
had earlie celebration with familie..
went to 'no signboard' there eat..
damn nice!!
ordered tons of food;
took shots of 3 onli..
cuzz keep on forget to take pic><
gort oyster; prawns; frog; crabs; 'bamboo?'; vege && ii forget lerhhs..
aniwaes;
it was a feast larhhs!!
yumyum((:
was bloated when finish..
hahas..
home-d && slack-ed((:
pics upp nxt time bahhs;
gonna study lerhhs..

i dont noe..
its hard for mii to decide;
ure a friend;
a bud;
a bestie.
burt; ii dun seem to see more..
yes or no;
hiies or byes;
love or hate;
ii cant decide.
ii neither love nor hate;
iim jus a plain jane.
dun pick mii;
ii cant stand the pressure;
ii dun wanna be a puppet;
a puppet of the rich.

crapps

LEO - The Lion

Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Usually happy, but when unhappy tend to be grouchy and childish. A Leo's problem becomes everyone's problem. Most Leos are very predictable and tend to be monotonous. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Very predictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

Gort tis from a email((:
hahas..
ii agree with those tat are underlined ones((:

anniversaries

iim bored;
jus rmb.

happie 6mths anniversary to orle && zhihui((:

&&s also; plus;

happie 5mth anniversary to jas && tze huan((:
plus;
happie belated 5mths anniversary to mel && heibazi((:

hopp all of ure last longlong arhhs :DD

loads of lollipops

hmmms;
today kl nv come;
ting2 sat with mii((:

aniwaes;
ii fail until siiao for amaths;
iim disappointed.
[though ii expected to get lower.]
lessons as per norm;
ii finally appeared for physics><
cuzz abst marhhs..
hahas..
after school wait for jas lvy && wl with sam((:
then went to canteen eat..
bought fried rice..
then 3 plates all share larhhs..
burt they gort band at 3.05[fall in]
so ii had to wait for them then can eat..
hahas.. 1 wait for 4><
aniwaes;
ate le then they go band;
ii went home((:
chatted on phone wibb budds;
iim sleepy.
aniwaes;
laobud;
dun think so muchh larhhs..
jus let nature take its course((:
[dun correct marhhs]

Replies for taggies at blogg((:

summ pics

Sam's bright red hair!!! ><
[her hair is red de((:]

summ lollipops((:
[mini derhhs!!]

jus found out;
my heart has stopped
its beatings.
&&s;
ii so wanna stay home.

iiabhordancechers.

ii abhor dance teacher-in-charge(s) larhhs..

nort mdm lee of course..
mdm seah ok.

whatever.

aniwaes;
school was okays larhhs..
kl went home after amaths..
ytd he nort feelin well liaos..
aniwaes;
'kapo' jas sit with mii..
sry sam!!
then whole day sit with her..
crapped((:
oyas;
TYS LITING FOR LENDIN MII CALCULATOR!! :DDDDD
l0ls><
ii forget bring calculator..
then 1st two lesson amaths test.
tys!!((((:
aniwaes;
ii offically flunk-d my amaths test.
ii flunk-d my chinese oso..
my grades are gettin from:
good-average-pass-fail-bad-worse.
wth?
gonna buck up liiaos..
realli dun wanna fail animore papers..
hsu huishan must JIAYOUS! lerhhs!
wells;
JIAYOUS! bahhs everyone((:

fk off mskp.

[this post will be kinda loaded with vulgars; norm post will be nxt post.]
sibei pekchek today siias..
mornin wanted to go dance..
burt ii was dumb enuff to miss my stop twice.
so comfirm latelatelate larhhs..
reached school at 8+..
dance break.
waited for annabelle;
slacked
[is cher dun wan care us larhhs]
then went up 3rd lvl find cher.

'called' mdm lee && mdm seah out.
scolded us there.
mdm seah larhhs..
then she go tell ms lee come up.

[pardon for the vulgarities]
_|_ her larhhs!!!
fkincbnbknn larhhs..
she didnt scold.
she didnt shout.
she SCREAMed.
&& we were abt 25cm away from ea other.
&& for her info;
we're both YOUNGER than her.
SHE DIE WE OSO HAVEN DIE LARHHS.
she deaf le we still can hear better larhhs!!!
no wonder no 1 wans her..
whateva larhhs..
everythin oso wan black && white..
go jail larhhs!!
everythin black && white.
paint && dye ureself black && white.
blind ure self even better.
nb siias..
damn fk-ed up when ii think of her..
ms kpkb still come relief my class..
show attitude summore..
UUE THINK UUE BIG ARHHS?
WHERE BIG?
ASS ARHHS!
say we attitude gort prob..
before uue say us;
think abt ureself.
uue gort the rights to scold us marhhs?!!
uue say uue treat us nicenice before.
we gort show uue attitude before mehhs?
we all oso nicenice de whats!
get it right.
we aint 'attitude probs-creators'.
we change accordin to circumstances.
tats life.
uue treat ppl nicely;
ure in return;
treated nicely.
uue show attitude;
of course ppl oso show uue attitude rights?
no brains to think abt tat arhhs?!!
get lost.

blogthings

kinda siians..
decided to do summ 'quizzes'

You Have Very Healthy Relationships

You are an amazing friend, partner, and family member. You always take other people's feelings into account, and you're never selfish. Your relationships are based on mutual respect. You respect the people you love, and you only love people who respect you in return.

Do You Have Healthy Relationships?

You Are Not Prejudiced

Not only are you color blind, but you're also ethnicity blind, gender blind, and sexual orientation blind. You don't judge someone until you truly know them. And even then, you're probably reluctant to judge. You try to treat everyone equally. Everyone has a fair chance with you. Good job - there's not a prejudiced bone in your body.

Are You Prejudiced?

You Are a Little Messy

You aren't the cleanest person in the world, but you're definitely not a slob. You clean up when you have the time, but you're realistic about what you can get done. Generally, you're pretty organized and tidy - though you may have a few hidden messes. You eventually get around to making things spotless, but you do it on your own schedule!

Are You Messy?

You Are 84% Real

There's hardly a person on this earth more real than you are. You have no problem showing people who you are, flaws and all. For you, there couldn't be any other way. Because it's way too stressful to live an inauthentic life. You're very comfortable with yourself. And because of this, you're able to live an exciting, interesting, and challenging life.

How Real Are You?

You Are 82% Grown Up, 18% Kid

Your emotional maturity is fully developed, and you have an excellent grasp on your emotions. In fact, you are so emotionally mature - you should consider being a therapist!

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

You Are Chardonnay

Fresh, spirited, and classic - you have many facets to your personality. You can be sweet and light. Or deep and complex. You have a little bit of something to offer everyone... no wonder you're so popular. Approachable and never smug, you are easy to get to know (and love!). Deep down you are: Dependable and modest Your partying style: Understated and polite Your company is enjoyed best with: Cold or wild meat

What Kind of Wine Are You?

What Your Little Black Dress Says About You

You are lively and outgoing. You are naturally friendly. You enjoy meeting new people and making new connections. Your style is whimsical and unique. You're good at putting together interesting outfits. If you were a shoe, you would be: High heeled boots

The Little Black Dress Test