a special post.
found out;
deep in my heart;
ii treat uue nort with respect;
burt cuz iim terrified..
when ii was sec1;
my maths && science were damn right good.
did uue even notice?
ii've nv failed maths nor sci during sec1.
was there a praise?
chi, eng..
failed once or twice;
did ii shame uue?
sec2.
maths && science were good as well.
though nort as perfect as sec1;
ii nv scored less than border line pass.
that goes for music as well.
what uue tot of mii was that;
these sub gort what use?
sec3.
flunked almost of all my tests;
that was after midyr.
b4 mid-year;
ii did work hard.
ii did tried.
burt;
each time ii fail a test;
uue jus shouted.
uue scolded.
even if the test was diff;
ii passed;
uue would jus say;
borderline pass onli ma..
ii said alot of ppl fail;
kinda hard..
uue would reply;
then why uue nort top?
why score so low?
did uue ever care?
did uue even wanted to know how ii was?
ii wanted to go to 3e1..
why?
cuzz uue kept comparin mii && my bigbro.
he's smart, clever.
he has the brains.
ii dont.
went to 3e1;
cuzz uue said.
bio;
at least can become doc..
earn more money;
gort brighter future.
ii went.
everything was jus different there..
it was harder; tougher..
plus bio;
time was never enough..
did uue noe?
ii was always the first to wake;
last to sleep.
ii never had more than 8hrs of sleep.
mid-yr results;
gort Cs && Bs.
ii nv aced;
uue jus gave mii the look.
that stare.
what uue built in mii was never fatherly love.
it was terror.
it was being petrified of uue..
sumtimes ii wonder;
sumtimes ii hopp;
am ii even ure daughter?
whats the use of a father;
when uue despise havin a daughter lyk mii?