2009; INCOMING 2010.

Hmm.
no idea what to type?
aniwaes;
its 11.59PM now^^
its the LAST DAY OF 2009 & the LAST MINUTE OF 2009 :D
hahas.
hope that next year, 2010, would be a better year for me bahhs.
*wonders if anione would be in the same school as me next year*

iim wishing for 2010 to be:
1-A Happier Year
2-Less Commotions
3-Less Conflicts
4-More Fun :D

ii hope to be in 2010:
1-More Discipline-d
2-Get Stronger[as in less prone to sickness && stamina]
3-Be Happier! :D


hmmm.
&&& ii hope JANUARY 2010 would be an EXCELLENT mth;
cause' of olevel results & admissions :P

JAE - JC or POLY?

Okays.
just decided on my course of tertiary education.
no wait.
have not decided the full course.
cause' ii've onli chosen the courses iim gonna take.
JC-Science
Poly-Many? cant say tons.
hmmm.
iim focused for POLY on hotel, resort, leisure, tourism management.
psycology too! [burt its lyk 8 COP?!]
thenns JC ii headed for banking.
stucked with JC/Poly.
aiming JC bahhs?
decided not to go AJC le.
didnt know the COP was 7 for Science.
God.
tough mark larhhs~
SRJC, JJC, CJC, PJC, TPJC
TP, NYP, SP, NP.
decided what iim gonna take if iim in JC,
poly.. not yet?
no idea which poly would be best.
thou, TP seems to be the best choice?
since ii really want the course T01..

aniwaes;
its the last day of 2009!
gonna set post for 11.59pm :D

OUTING?

29.12.2009'Tuesday.
went out with Elvira & Jaslyn.
supposed to go sentosa;
burt upon arriving vivo;
decided not to go.
hahas.
cause too many people le.
aniwaes;
watched SHERLOCK HOLMES.
nice movie :D
wanted to try Avatar thou.
thenns ate at LJS,
and mii & Jas went to buangkok.
gort my christmas present;
a little shocked.
went compass,
finally bought Jas's Birthday Present le^^
home-d after that.


30.12.2009'Wednesday-Today.
woke at 5;
dine-d at 6plus;
read till 8plus;
watch-d show till now.
aniwaes;
bored, bored, boredom.
intending to go kovan tomo thou.
to learn how to knit.
hmmm.
no idea if they gort open shop not.
*wonders if ii should pull humans along?*
iidontknow.

iidontknow.

it just means to me:

ii've never thought of it.

ii dont wanna know.

ii love to say iidontknow;

cause' ii dont wanna find out any answers.

cause' sometimes, ii just wanna put myself out of anything that can cause me misery.

cause, ii just wanna be an sotong for moments,

to be in a world that is simple, fun and stress free.

a world that can put a smile on my face,

a smile in my heart.

merry x'mas :D

okays.

25th December 2009;

MERRY CHRISTMAS HUMANS!

especially by beloved humans! :D

aniwaes;
currently watchin drama;
2.37am.
hahas.
been sleeping around 3plus 4plus.
latest was actually 6.41am.
thou;
been staying at home; rotting & sleeping :D
&& peeps;
PLEASE dont call mii during 7am-3pm.
iim SLEEPING!
the earliest time ii would wake up ishh 3pm.
thou,
woke at 9plus to give meixiu her books;
slept back.
ahahs.
aniwaes;
iim craving fishballs nowwwww~
jus ate tangyuan.
been ages since ii ever ate rice/noodles.
since ii wake at 3pm;
ii dont have breakfast nor lunch marhhs..
thenn dinner ii always ask my bro buy the side dishes onli;
dont wan rice.
now;
ii sortta find it hard to eat rice/noodles larhhs.
mum once brought wanton mee;
ii ate 1/2 mouths cannot take it le;
lyk bloated liiaos.
thenns oso wanna vomit.
hymp.
shudd eat more bahhs?
underweight le; [unbelievable larhhs!]
must gain weight! [nt excessively thou.]
:D
okiies;

merry christmas humans

& have a great and refreshing new year! <3333

COCONUT~

Okays.
iim currently drinking my coconut;
my mum damn good larhhs.
she help mii open marhhs.
then she chop the top.
she onli cracked the shell; never "destroy" the top part of the meat.
hahas.
aniwaes;
its superb-ly sweet :D
was supposed to go sentosa with elvira today;
burt the morning sky looked as thou gonna rain le;
weather forecast say shower;
so nv go.
burt its lyk bright and sunny?
l0ls.
gonna go on 29dec with jas & elvira thou^^
sandwiches made by elvira!
hahas.
ii bring my beloved longan and red date drink.
[addicted cause' of pris><]
gonna watch my DVDs lerhhs :D
forgot to buy 终及三国 thou.
siians~

hmmm.

have yet to look at the thickthick book for JC POLY courses.

hahas.

directly aft o's was work.

aft work was relax.

&& now iim fretting for my o's results.

AJC seems to be a farfar dream;

nv to be reached.

even if get into JC;

which courses should ii take?

economics?

for banking?

or survive JC and get into uni for hotel and resort management?

how should ii plan?

what will ii be in the future?

what will ii get for completing masters?

to what age should ii plan to?

yesterday is past.

today is current.

tomorrow is future.

how will ii noe how to plan,

if ii myself dont noe how and to what extend?

if iim to die early;

ii wanna play and study and get into a good JC anjd UNI.

if iim to die old;

ii wanna do the same things,

excel more.

cause' if ii die old,

ii live longer, ii dont wanna suffer.

good day; bad day.

okays.
seriously officially quit le.
need not go back lerhhs!!
worked for her for 3days; plus 2hrs[today].
didnt expect her to give me pay;
burt yesh; she is giving me pay!
god.
somemore nt ii ask de.
she finally;
for once;
took the initiative. hahas.
aniwaes;
gonna get my "extra" pay nxt wk.
now ii can rest fully lerhhs.
feel as thou a v.heavy burden was took off my shoulders.
jus lyk directly after my olevels.
feels great; am great :D

aniwaes;
iim glad ii worked today.
cause' Alan gave out chocolates!
ishh Calbury de.
each one 1.
thenns iim included! yays!

thenns;
as for my heading;
good day-obviously all of the above.
bad day-cause' today at the wee hours of the day my eyelid twitched.
so tomo think bad day?
burt both my left & right twitch.
alternate larhhs=.=

no idea;
gonna bask in my freedom noww :D

&& something random;
my rm now gort 2L of longan & Red date drink;
&& 1.48L of Yeo's Wintermelon Tea;
&& 1.8L of Yeo's Chrysanthemum Tea><

NOT EVEN OVER MY DEAD BODY

shit her larhhs.
[EX-boss]
she's lyk "uue'll get ure pay when uue finish ure work lorhhs"
MY WORK!?!
she sure nort!?!
asshole.
iim soooooooooo NOT gonna do HER WORK.
not even over my dead body.
ii hate her.
no.
II ABHORE HER.
tomo;
aft mii & jas go settle the testimonal thing at school;
iim gonna rot at the centre until she appears.
iim NOT gonna do HER BLOODY WORK while waiting.
if she REFUSES to give me pay;
iim gonna ask my mum help ask her.
simple as that.
iim not going overboard;
burt SHE HAS GONE OVERBOARD; WAY TOO MUCH.

DENIAL

am in denial;
as from my tarot-in the past.
now;
iim deluding thyself;
and it works well with denial... ii guess.

relaxing at home;
burt iim bored ii guess.
[nahhs.]
slept till 2.08 this aftnoon;
sms-d humans b4 that.
even sms message to wrong person=.=
brain never function. hahas..

ii dont wanna be alone.

it makes mii think.

its nort a good sign.

by myself; my mask falls.

its even harder to contain.

cause'

alone-d; ii face the truth.

the reality of things.

and it hurts.

a lot.

emo-lishious as ii am;

ii love the night; the moon; the stars; the cold & the rain.

and ii'd love;

to be all away.

nt fm this earth;

burt away from myself.

cause' ii hide my feelings;

and the pain jus magnifies.

away from myself;

away from thinking;

away from living.

FURIOUS;

Okays.
my mum is officially enraged now.
she's offically pissed furious w my ex-boss.
KUDOS to her.
cuzz she wans mii to do some MORE work.
thenn say what ishh MY RESPONSIBILITY.
seriously;
she told mii to do the TWO files.
NEVER did ii hear her say THREE.
now;
she wans mii to do the sec3&4 file;
God. Damn. Shit.
She FAIL her Mathematics or what?
still needa upload piics.
&&;
iim glad iim going back on tues to collect pay.
cause' thats when all the beans spills.
cause' thats when II SCREAM. she keeps HER MOUTH SHUT.
unless of course,
my mum screams at her first^^

II QUIT LERHHS!!

FINALLY!
II QUIT MY GOD.DAMN JOBB LERHHS!!!~

OMG,
damn high now.
feel so relaxed larhhs;
gort my job that time ii was time-lag larhhs.
didnt noe what date ishh today;
do until ii didnt noe what time=.=
1day can do up to 13hours near 14.
God.
burt now;
iim finally FREE~
can sleep longlong;
can do whatever ii want;
dont need do worksheets/ppt lerhhs!

gonna get pay on tue/wed.
burt 23DEC still needa go back;
flyers to sec.school.
burt gonna ask if ii can miss that.
cause' ii gort back prob~

aniwaes;
gonna go SLEEP lerhhs :DD

0502am

okays.
its currently 0502AM now.
&& what am ii doing?
P6 MATH!
WORK.
GOD.
sleep so little time=.=
&&;
iim at my fifth topic nia.
still gort the sixth thenns finish lerhhs.
SIIANS.
have a feeling later she will wan us redo the MATH.

5.dec.2009

hmmm;
drinking yummyyummy soup now^^
yumyum~

worked today[typical?; dont get why ii type that out thou]
bored.
reached at 1pm;
taught math at 2pm-330pm.
science ishh 500-630pm.
thenns typing,typing,typing.
bored;
onli ii there.
cause jh nv come; wx & jas leave early.
ii solo till 930.
anw;
need to complete my math!
ARGHH!
still gort percentage(1/2); Time & speed; Average.
must finish by today!
wait.
ishh tomo.
okiies; continue my math lerhhs...

飞轮海·很安静

飞轮海.很安静

要说得多动听
才能证明最亲密的关系
云绕着天空什么也没讲
已是最美好的约定

要说得多华丽
才能说出最默契的默契
我在你身边呼吸都沉默
你却懂我每个情绪
这世界太热闹怎么倾听
一颗心呼唤另一颗的声音
这世界再热闹还好我们
刚好在这里刚好很安静

love you~love you~

要说得多肯定
才能肯定两个人的心情
风遇上风筝还没有邀请
已经一起愉快旅行

要说得多用力
才能留下最坚定的确定
每一个路口你不用开口
我已经重合你脚印

这世界太热闹怎么倾听
一颗心呼唤另一颗的声音
这世界再热闹还好我们
刚好在这里刚好很安静(刚好很安静)
所有感受不用形容
已经那么懂(已经那么懂)
所有的感动是安静的心动(安静的心动)
这世界再热闹也没关系
每一个眼神我们就能感应
这世界再热闹我们已经
在彼此心里所以很安静(所以很安静)

DEATH

worked today.
[everyday=.=]
overslept.
supposed to report at 930,
reached at 1155.
l0ls.
mathmathmath.
left at 6;
movie at tampines.
was lost.
found belle.
NEW MOON.
FAB.
slightly late thou[watch-d it b4]
cuzz ii was a lost sheep.

iim bushed.

iim made of emotions and meat.

and being a human too.

iim not a machine or a robot.

ii cant function non-stop.

ii cant pretend nth is wrong.

ii cant not feel.

even machines need their rest.

a break is all ii need.

not a break to sleep.

a break from the whole entire world & every human being on the Earth.

ii thought it was all fine.

sunshine over rain.

noppes.

iim wrong.

&& ii've always been wrong.

why is it that iim the one taking the initiative?

why is it that iim the kind one?

why is it that iim the generous one?

why is it that ii feel?

ii dont wanna be the person who cares.

ii dont wanna be the person who is concerned.

ii dont wanna be the IDIOT who cares or others more than themselves.

ii dont wanna be the dummy, who willing die for others.

ii dont wanna be the one,

the one who takes all the blame, my fault or not.

ii dont wanna be the stupid one,

the one that is hurt because others are hurt.

ii dont wanna be blamed,

for something that ii was encouraged to do,

not right nor wrong,

but the fault is always mine.

ii dont wanna be the one who is brainless enough to be a shield;

a shield for people around me.

ii dont wanna be treated lyk a machine,

cause even machines malfunction.

ii dont wanna live;

cause my wish is for death.

ii dont wanna be the one who gets hurt.

ii dont wanna be the one to be strong.

ii dont wanna be the one to be brave.

ii dont wanna be the one who is responsible.

ii dont wanna be the one who lives for others.

ii dont wanna be the one;

the one that is all of the above.

happiness. why despair?

ii should feel glad and happy and relief now.
but why do ii feel a wave of sadness?
despair?
this confuses me.
ii've programmed myself to hide everything,
yet my programme is not specific enough to control the real inner emotions.

forgiveness; never

ii can never forgive you.

its not my stand to say so,

but,

its not something ii can forgive.

given another chance,

ii would NEVER let you hurt her.

you would nv understand the pain.

cuzz uue hurt-d her.

& now;

uue are a friend of mine NO MORE.

did ii make a right choice?
hmmmm. -thinking in process-
ii didnt. ii guess.

work today.
ppt, sci exp, receipts, attendance list, worksheets.

tomo:
Primary 6 maths ppt,
photos , lessons fm 2-5,
&& duno what.



ii hope ii never see you again.
its for the better ii guess.
sometimes ii wonder.
would anything change if ii died?
as my foolish wish,
hold me back.
it can & will never come true. ii believe.
that is what that hurts me most.
its a foolish wish that was never real,
yet, as dumb as ii can be,
lyk a kid waiting for the real santa,
it was never possible.
it will never come true.
it was never real.
its hard to say goodbye,
&& ii've jus made it worst.
ii dun wanna see you again,
if thats how iim gonna say bye.
cuzz, thats how it is meant to be.
cuzz, thats you.

ii know the pain,

how it feels.

thats why, ii can never forgive people who hurt my friends.

LAPPY

Okays.
bought lappy ytd.
acer.
&& seriously;
stop askin why ii bought this instead of vaio.
ii bought for quality;
nt looks=.=
its cheaper too!
for better quality!
[seem to be promoting..?]
aniwaes;

work tomo!...

memories;

locked in.

etched to my mind;

ii can nv bear to erase it.

cuz;

ii can nv bear to hate you.

ii can nv bear to forget you.

lyk a foolish child;

ii hid the scars underneath a pile of items.

hoping,

that no one would find it,

that ii would be safe.

yet,

something would always jot the memories.

and it would lift all the items hidin the scars.

that would bring me back my pain.

but,

as foolish as a child can be,

a child is able to forget these memories.

ii am a foolish teen;

foolish enough to let myself get hurt;

but nv shudd uue get hurt.

ii am able to feel a person's aura,

mayb nt v.accurately;

but almost.

sadness, happiness fm within, sorrow, pain.

ii am always there with a shoulder for ppl to cry on.

to tell mii ure pain;

& hope that ii understand.

ii do.

ii cant say fully;

cuzz ii was once told no one can understand another person's pain FULLY.

& ii agree.

but.

who understands me?

even a tiny bit?

no.

iim an excellent actress.

ii hide my pain & sorrow well.

express happiness to the fullest.

but;

do any of uue guys even noe,

why do ii lyk to sit in a bus; starin through the window; speechless?

& alone?

no.

none of uue noes.

dun tell mii uue do,

cuzz when iim in pain;

no one was there.

a front ii put on;

a front uue believe.

ii can never let my mask fall off;

unless alone.

cause' none of uue have seen mii cry.

unless 2yrs ago.

noe why?

cuzz only i can stop thyself from crying.

its not something lyk mentality or self advice.

its just;

no one is or was able to console me;

cuzz no one understood.

cuzz ii've been trained;

to build a void high & deep enough to hide my pain.

they may overflow,

thats when ii breakdown.

but then;

ii can stop thyself fm crying in 10mins.

dun say it takes long;

cuzz uue dont know how deep my scars are.

cuzz uue dont know jus how much ii've been through.

hurt-d

The Only People That Hurt You
Are The Ones You Love.
Because If You Didnt Love Them,
You Wouldnt Care.

rain

Fragile In Romance; Harsh Words Cut Deep

Byes,Thanks for the memories.

i hide these feelings; my mask.
ii'll never forget; the things
ii closed my eyes and the images formed,
tears rolled down my cheeks,
uncontrollably...
and it feels too surreal; to know..
drowning in tears; iim pained
leaving a scar; iim stained
killing myself; a knife

HH,HB.
silent.
the words ii yearn to hear;
the actions ii yearn to own;
the you ii yearn to hold;
bye.
its time to leave,
perseverance is nth when it comes to time.
ii've waited, you too.

mayb we're nt fated,
or never meant to be.
ii dont know,
but ii assure you, ILY.
and ii assure you too,
iim leaving and nt turning back.
it hurts to see, it hurts to know.
hold me back;
its my foolish wish.
tears overwhelmed me,
but,
it remains a fact that;
ii am alone.

Mel's house overnight!

gonna crap abt Grad;
& the overnight at mel's house^^

20.11.09;Friday
FUNFUNFUN.
Hilarious too^^
H·W won the "Prom King" award larhhs^^
aniwaes;
took lots of piics;
in belle & Jas cam thou.
gonna 'kapo' from them.
&&s;
ii won the lucky draw?
$20 popular vouch..
went to XY Birthday party after grad.
lots of food & crapping.
forgort my tarot thou.


21.11.09;Saturday
Arrived at mel's house after renting CDs.
watched:
1·Baby Mama
2·The Hottie and the Naughty
3·Slumdog Millionaire
4·He's just not that into you
5·The Eye
6·Superhero
Skipped some parts thou;[onli 4&5]
thenns midnight;
we sung the BIRTHDAY SONG for the BIRTHDAY GAL :DDD <333
hahas.
aft that, played tarot.
hahas. damn dumbb larhhs.
middle of the night at 130 play till 3+


22.11.09;Sunday
Woke at 9; slept back till 10+
baked cookies;
YUMMY!!!~
seriously, it IS delicious!
GOD.
aniwaes;
its lyk damn fun & funnie larhhs^^
mii & belle decided to help mel's mum to bake next time.
hahas.
home-d around 7plus8?[nt sure]
&&s;
thou late;

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY MELIZSA·GWL!!!!!
loveya forever :D

23.11.09;Monday
work.

260th post

my 260th post.
random.

burtburtburt,
ii dont feel lyk going grad now.
seriously.
jus feel lyk rotting at home;
and pity myself for going to work.
that is, if ii do not go.
which is seriously a possibility.
sleepy.
shall sleep lerhhs.
and plann tomo;
since iim hesitating now.
cold.

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done I just can't do this anymore
Cause we can't be mended
So let's stop pretending now
We've been walking round in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry I, I

disgusted.

OMG.
dun wanna noe; dun wanna care.
zip it, end of story.

shopping today.
far east.
mel belle.
[ii rmb the shoes!><]
ii hate belle; she bought the shoes ii like de.
didnt have my size :/
&&s mel told belle the shoes ii like de fits her dress more.
so ii hate her too.><
l0ls.
nahhs.
nt so evil & petty.
gort my shoes today; and II LOVE MY SKULL RING.
LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!!!! <33333333333333333333
[iim mental.]

gonna go mel's house at 9am;
to make up; wash face; iron dress->everything.
thenns cab down to raffles town club.
lazy to do medi/pedi-cure.
wanted to do french medi; LAZY.
ii'd rather SLEEP.

finally gort hold of whats' life.
iim getting numb-d.
ii dont mind getting hurt;
cant feel it now. later.
ii mind my friends getting hurt.
ii do.
they hide; ii see.
its torturous to noe whats hurting;
yet can do no nothing abt it.
Sick. Of. It. Seriously.
Just. Perish. To. Hell.
God. Damn. You.

END OF O'S!

OMG.
MY O'S ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!!! ❤❤❤

yays!
finally my o's are TOTALLY over larhhs :D
elated!!
aniwaes;
had my last paper today: Bio MCQs.
hmmmm. ii'd say average bahhs.
some tough some easy.

anihow;
had my job briefing too^^
apparently iim nort doin some stuffs burt others.
was lyk rushin around larhhs.
kinda weird. hahas.

tomo gonna start work officially thou :D
YIPPEES!
thou; its 630AM.
any difference fm going to school?
[one v.impt diff.: ii dun get paid going to school]
gonna go CHIJ pri-flyers. wiib Jiahui't.
[its lyk 1stop away fm my house?]

gonna go sleep le bahhs xD
niites People~

slacking

hmmm.
bored stiff;
headache causes mii pain?
no idea why ii typed the above burt nevertheless;

iim SLACKIN thou tomo my chinese o's.
nort jus today;
burt ever since fri><

Friday-06.11.09
went to the Singapore Hit Awards.
fun. lazy to elaborate bahhs.
home-d earlie;
at 11 left lerhhs.
cabbed due to my heels being broken >:(
would have stayed if nort for the heels too T.T
took my heels off when ii reached outside of the stadium larhhs=.=
at the gate. hahas.
thenns walked barefooted.
aniwaes; home-d wiib mh burt ii went home first.
[tys mh! :D]
ask my bro to take my slippers down. l0ls.

Saturday-07.11.09
slept fm 1am to 12pm.
thenns ate lunch; shopping.
gort my grad. clothes lerhhs.
one piece.
mayb buying another..?
[saw some nice ones; cheapest ones: $155.-France-
mum said ii have 好眼光. l0ls.]
home-d at 5.20pm;
slept fm 530pm to 8pm.[ahahs]
thenns began to read twilight; [repetition]
&&s eclipse. didnt wanna read new moon;
nt much abt Edward & Bella.
sooo;
read till 4am=.=

Sunday-08.11.09
slept fm 4am to 1pm.
lunch-d; tv-d & read.
finished eclipse;
dinner &&s at 7pm send my 大哥 to airport.
Aus for a year.
hopes he'll be fine there^^
home-d around 845pm?
read till 12am;
slept.
headache too much lerhhs;
cant take it.
had my headache b4 sendin my bro;
burt nt so serious; put it off.
thenns when home-d oso same case.
till midniite; sibei pain larhhs.
can even feel it throbbing T.T

Monday[today]-09.11.09
slept at 12plus; woke at 12.41pm.
l0ls.
tv-d;
mum jus installed the mio tv thingy. <333
read. again.[breaking dawn]
dinner.
finished book.
blogging.


been sleeping the past few days.
mayb iim makin up for the lost of sleep during the period b4 my exams?
whatever :D
glad iim able to sleep thou.[insomnia]
wanted to sleep longer derhhs.
burt needa off the aircon=.=
anihow;
iim targettin an Ace for my Chinese o's tomo^^

第15届新加坡金曲奖

my blog looks is dead.
came to update a little^^

hmmm;
exams now more than half over lerhhs!!!
YAYS!
seriously; so muchmuch more relaxed :DD
&&s;
the emaths o tis year was superduper EASY! <3333
amaths oso easy bahhs. nort easy peasy thou.><
thenns eng still okays;
nort sure abt format thou.
humanities was jus damn idotic;
[ss-fine(all 3topics ii predict will come out came out!)
e.geo-damn qns; its nort the knowledge prob; its the english.]
C.Science was easy too :DD esp.chem <33

note:
this friday ishh biology paper 2;
which is tomo.
kinda dun feel the stress though.
lyk die jiu die lorhhs><
aniwaes;
tomo night gonna go the 第15届新加坡金曲奖.
wibb budds too :DD
ii gort tickets!!! free!!
l0ls.
Crap.

gonna go studie le bahhs.
later fail bio[choi!] thenns die=.=
hopp can AT LEAST get a C6 thou.
[since iim nort gonna add it into my L1R5]

And how I'm stuck here with the ghost of what we used to be

cried

sometimes; ii fall.
sometimes iim tired.
sometimes iim hurt.
hurt not by the fact that you dont understand;
burt by the fact that you never understood.
its startin to have a toll on mii;
iim telling myself ii can cope;
iim forcing myself to believe;
iim hypnotizing myself to live.
its tough-building a void over & over again.
its tough living life over & over again;
its tough going through everyday trying to create shan.

now or later

confused.
stuck.
mixed.

idontknow.
god.

studied today;
a little. hahas.
thenns home-d.
love the weather;
the shade;
the breeze today.
burt; nort the sun though.
hahas xD

attractive weather; repulsive sunlight.
&&s; shan loves the moon!! plus the stars!! && the night sky!!
[just being random]

iim lovin the cold;
iim lovin the night;
iim lovin the stars;
iim lovin the moon.
if ure the sun'
thenn ii must be the moon.
separated;
ii cant shine without you.

sec4

My precious class of 3/4'express'1-o9 :D

Empty

Tried to take a picture Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her that much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter in ink
Its been getting better I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty, its empty

Maybe we're trying, trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered if we
Should be getting under these sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty, its empty

Maybe we're trying, trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing is beating our hearts
We're empty

Maybe we're trying, trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing is beating our hearts
We're empty

We're empty
We're empty

heart probs.

decided to post since com workin fine.

2nd time useing the computer since the start of October><
[believe even b4 oct larhhs=.=]
lyk so old age lerhhs xD
okays;
bored.

dying today;
burt didnt.
tys to: H·W & K·L Leon & Colin!! :D
&&s: X·Y & Jaslyn & Mdm·Lee & Ms·Chen(bahhs):DD
plus(?): [ Aeroy & Q·L & Kumar & Y·Q ] for moral support XD

nort gonna elaborate;
nt sth to be glory of.

Okays.
still bored.
went for ert;the "emergency plan"[l0ls!] today.
fine;
till ii seriously wanna get home.
or get away.
whatever.

meetin erika & mel tomo;
study.
Oyarhhs!
erika bully mii T.T [xP]

iloveyou

God.
Eventful day sia><

burt;
nahhs. nort gonna elaborate.
changed url;
duno how to change blogskin.
hahas.

&&; ii gort my Job lerhhs! xD

aniwaes;
short post.
o levels reaching & iim nort posting.
sms mii if gort anithing :D

PS: my com is lagging lyk hell. freak.

god.
hypnotize thyself' & placed a mask;
all uue did was jus appear;
& it's all gone.
iim afraid;
nt of uue, burt of the outcome.
ii dunt wan history to repeat thrice.
iim sorry; the truth ii think uue know.

One picture; a thousand word.

mine yet never mine;
my turn to perform now; not yet

my stage; never mine.

iim really drying out.
seriously;
ii do feel dead. as thou iim lost;
as thou ii cant find thyself;
as thou ii never existed...
something in mii is just missing, ii feel so out of breath.

finally

Okays.
didnt post for quite some time burt ishh cuzz my keyboard spoilt.
ytd nite thenns replace.
okays.
short post. lazy.

school reopen.
studied.
gort scolded by ms·zuhailah.
weird.
she told us to do the holy paper2 b4 she ask us present.
thenns after that she say present the ans of GanEng sec paper2 .
wth?
mdm·lee absent; CDP & E·geo off.
did maths[a little].
thenns mrs·lim oso absent;
phy off.
total:2hours.

BORED :/
my post are in stops if uue notice.
lazy.
lunchin now;
Banana Nut Cereal.
no idea if its lunch or breakfast.
aniwaes;
go sleep le. buaixbuaix

ii feel dead.
as thou iim nort me anymore.
confused.

teachers day

Okays.
pre set the previous post ytd so that it will "pop" out at 12mid.
hahas.
cuzz duno if today will post nort marhhs.
apparently, yes.

woke at 10 today.
took bus to Hougang Avenue 8;
kinda gort lost.
missed 1 stop thou. when alighting><
met up wibb belle;
thenns mel & erika;
haircut.
ii didnt. the 3 of them did. hahas
thenns went to macs;
didnt wanted to eat actually.
cuzz save money^^
burt mel go temp mii;
&& ii gave in to tempation xD
l0ls.
did my notes :D
finish my notes on amaths lerhhs.
physics too!! :DD
did a note on circles for belle thou.
cuzz her n-level nxt week marhhs.
ii sooo good. hahas
thenns around 4++ went to erika's house.
first time there; belle nv come.
saw Bobby; && guppies && some unknown fishes><
was hilarious thou xD
cuzz on the way to erika's house we reminiscing sec1.
thenns reach there le reminiscing old stories.
hahas.
fun thou^^
home-d around 630+;
after the lava thing go "frozen"><

reached home && was kinda funnie.
my room now STILL super cold.
whys?
cuzz ii morn forget off aircon><
thenns my dad reach home around 7 thenn off><
waste so muchh electricity larhhs!! >:(
burtt happie thou. cuzz cold marhhs xD

aniwaes;
gonna go study lerhhs.
be a good girl((:

Watashi Wa Baka desu。